Reminiscence

part 3

2006-03-15T00:06:00.000+08:00

here it is XD lol

Army Life Part 2

2006-01-21T21:30:00.000+08:00

Getting used to 'what the fuck'
Army food's beginning to suck.
Always having to avoid the truck,
Guess it's just our stupid luck.
Rainy weathers are a delight,
They put the officers in a plight,
Giving us more admin time in the night.
Learning drills are a bore,
They surely make our poor feet sore.
Under that freaking scorching sun,
Sweating isn't really much fun.
Handling the m16's a chore,
With tons of technical stuff galore.
Treating ur rifle like ur wife,
Spoiling it will cost ur life.
Everything has a time limit,
When time's up it sends us into a fit.
If we're late we make sergeant angry,
And punishment makes us even more hungry.
The 4 and 6km road marches suck,
On completion i will look like muck.
Carrying 10kg while walking aint easy,
My god, does it make u feel quite queasy!
Training everyday will improve our physical,
If only the trainings weren't so typical.
Routine like warmups are damn boring,
They always make me feel like snoring.
Lights always out at 10.30 sharp,
Cannot sleep also must not harp.
Bunk checks will soon get nasty,
But so far they are still treating us kindly.
Rushing about is really a chore,
Wasting time is no doubt a bore-
ESPECIALLY when most of the things u've learnt before.
Sometimes u just wanna curse and swear,
But heng u got ur buddy right there.
Standard obstacle course is chicken
Except the 4 metre high narrow wooden
Plank, that left me very much shaken.
I've become the chin-up IC,
In the end kenna blister for free.
Everyday waking at 5.30am,
Boring routine really makes me shout 'damn!'
Time crawls by when u want it to pass
Hope such monotony will not last.
Who knows what the field camp will bring,
7 solid days without bathing;
And eating only food rations for nothing!
Gosh i hope i wont have to sleep in a trench,
Dug out in the ground with a horrible stench.
Pray it doesnt rain that bad,
Else I'll be a very sad lad.
Life is getting better and more adjustable,
Especially with friends right by your side.
And though it may not be very comfortable,
Im sure in them I can confide.
Training no doubt will get tougher,
And the journey ever more rougher.
But one thing i will not forget-
That is never never never to fret!
And one last thing to profess
All my friends out there, I miss u yes!

army life part 1

2006-01-09T23:49:00.000+08:00

Whole day shouting 'yes sergeant!'
Sitting on the stupid floor.
washing clothes with detergent.
Sir checks bunk and knocks the door.
Progressive training they emphasize.
The officers seem to sympathise.
But what lies under this wonderful disguise?
Even I may not see through these lies.
Dreadfully slow does time crawl by,
so much so that I want to cry.
Lectures are boring and drills are dry,
nothing to do but Sit and SSigh.

Lying on bed thinking of home,
I feel as if im about to foam
at the mouth and die from being home sick
with every painful clock hand tick.
Gone are the days of games and leisure.
In army u will not get any such pleasure.
Ur job is to serve the nation with loyalty,
But at this standard we can go drink kopi.
When it comes to individual field craft,
its something u definitely cannot laugh
about, as it IS, incredibly tough
to complete without getting vexed-
It's worst than being taxed.
The physical training claims to strengthen your body
I see it as being, rather shoddy.
But perhaps that's the only likable thing in army,
something that new enlistees will see.
2 weeks confinement without booking out-
Cadets can do nothing more than pout.
This crushing cruelty is but reality,
a strict regiment under absolute authority.
Oh heavens guide me pass this boring lap
Of two years, and let my hair grow back A.S.A.P
LOL i cant help but laugh at such a mishap,
Now i have to wear my jockey cap!
Friends alike we will share our woes,
and it's such things that keep me on my toes.

They put me in Falcon company but i cant seem to fly,
It appears their aspirations must be high.
But our throats are soon going dry
After all that shouting to the sky.
Oh gosh hearken all the vulgarities,
A vast contrast with all the 'AMENITIES'
That the camp has to offer.
With monthly pay, what else can i say.
I hope in army, i can have a good day!

once so fair, now no hair

2006-01-06T19:00:00.000+08:00

NO more dreary afternoons
Lazing on the sofa watching cartoons.
Instead, serving army under those pompous goons,
Bound by vocal tunes
And paid mild fortunes
For monthly toil and hassle,
Starting with 2 months with rifle and vassal!
Oh how the officers would cackle
At the lowly recruit
Without rank and honour
-just some mindless pursuit!
But behold what the first 2 weeks have in store.
Not a mindless puppet washed up on shore,
But training with riches galore!
Both for the mind and body alike
Preparing us for that long hike
In which we would defend our country death alike,
And never say die without a fight!
Oh what delight
Shall it be to become a man
On the very grounds which i as a child once ran.
Never will it be the same again
After all the trouble, work, and pain.
The jungle and dirt would be my new home
A fearless soldier the lands shall i roam.
With friends and family i shall miss,
Such feelings are to be gone when i enlist!
Shuddering so suddenly in sheer anxiety,
At what a new environment will be!
A place where rules and commands have to be obeyed,
Where rigorous training and learning await
The poor fragile child that is about to enlist -
Who cant help but shake his fist
And groan at how time flies toward this dreadful fate,
Sigh, i hope on january 7th, i will not be late!

Lost Love

2005-11-24T01:56:00.000+08:00

Lost Love

O heavenly damsel sing,
a melted heart at but a flap of th'wing
O lovely dove!
Soul that lost hath yet found thee.
Sing! Sing for paradise is yet hollow
in the wake of th'blooming trail
shall the poor man follow.
'Tis but shameful shambles
does the wilted rose once stand,
upon the world that cruelly crumbles
On that poor lonely soul,
amidst a sea of thousand ghoul
this warrior wears
whips and thorns for rubies,
to an endless spar,
of broken treaties
that man and woman had once so far
paved the way for bashful bliss.
'Tis now asunder.
Something but amiss!
Alas, he might but wonder!
What hatred drives the fiery sun
which belies what his countenance would shun
this hateful world!
By Janus! A girl,
would so seemingly love
like myrtle,
Oh pitiful dove!
How th'heart aches at thee!
A thousand daggers thou'st cannot see,
for which love would a two way path
leave breath hanging in a frozen dream,
oh thou would'st not laugh.
You - virtuous maid as th'mind flees
from the world of lies - never would cease!
Pelting perpetuance,
this shattered realm of hopes and fears
can but drown thy sorrow in daily nuance.
Pray! this dove is not gone home,
this warrior will await
suffering suspense - but in chrome-
to hear you breathing,
and watch your smile while you are sleeping.
Though we hope for promising years
After shedding a thousand tears,
Yesterday's sorrow constantly nears.
And while the moon still shines blue,
By dawn, it will turn to scarlet hue.

-a poem created for a friend, and for all who fall under such a category

pun: school rules (screw rules)

2005-08-22T18:46:00.000+08:00

random thoughts

2005-08-09T12:37:00.000+08:00

it aint easy to forget memories, or a person; but under certain circumstances, or for the best, one must try to let it go... if it's yours it will come back to you. :") (a little something i learnt in jc)
sometimes what a person shows on the outside isnt what he feels on the inside. all my friends... have given me invaluable experience.

tests

2005-07-18T21:51:00.000+08:00

You scored as Angel. Angel: Angels are the guardians of all things, from the smallest ant to the tallest tree. They give inspiration, love, hope, and positive emotion. They live among humans without being seen. They are the good in all things, and if you feel alone, don't fear. They are always watching. Often times they merely stand by, whispering into the ears of those who feel lost. They would love nothing more then to reveal themselves, but in today's society, this would bring havoc and many unneeded questions. Give thanks to all things beautiful, for you are an Angel.

Angel

92%

Mermaid

67%

Faerie

58%

Dragon

50%

WereWolf

25%

Demon

What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)
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2005-07-14T18:39:00.000+08:00

ANGER
do you have a quick temper?: fleeting irritation.
what do you do when you're mad?: get frustrated and irritated but keep it to myself.
what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?: whack a wall? ouch.
if you can turn back time, would you have never done this?: sometimes one needs to let out his anger to feel better. no i would not regret such an action.
ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: no, definitely not.
ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?: ... no way.
do you curse when you're mad?: sometimes.

CRYING
when was the last time you really cried your heart out?: over some argument with parents. either that or just some self-thoughts that built up and led to me having to release them. over love?
ever cried yourself to sleep?: quite seldom, but it happens. esp when depressed for a period of time.
ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: no, its embarrassing. anyway, if im with my friends im usually happy. if im in school, i dont even show any emotion - school sux, face it :)
ever cried over the opposite sex?: definitely
do you cry when you get an injury?: two or three times. once somewhere during primary school where i got a huge wound on my knee, the second time when i had an illness rather - bad food poisoning. it was sooo pain that tears just came flowing out. the third time, i think was when i had asthma as a kid. also an illness.
do certain songs make you cry?: i cry easily, songs that are touching invoke sad memories and present sad images which can really make you cry.
can you make yourself cry?: its easy, just remember the thing that u cried hardest over. or sometimes u can imagine how sad u would be when ur parents are gone. i love my parents and ive thought about such things b4 - tears just flow uncontrollably.

PAIN
what's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through?: life. i agree with ee ling.
what's the worst thing you've done to yourself?: erm... nothing?
what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?: tell that person off.
ever had a painful break up?: dun remind me...
how depressed can you get?: enough to cry whenever i think of that thing. sometimes suicide even occurs to me, though i dont think id ever do it.
do you inflict pain on yourself?: nah... i inflict pain on the wall. and the wall, through physics, exerts an equal force back on my fist, hurting it. so i dont hurt myself LOL. -.-

HAPPINESS
are you normally a happy person?: yes most of the time. i only suffer from occassional bouts of depression.
what can make you happy?: lots of things - friends, love, funny things, cute things!!!
do you wish you were happier?: definitely
what makes you the happiest?: having friends, and knowing that they have u as a friend as well.
is being happy overrated?: NO
what about being with your friends, does that make you happy?: DUH
can music make you happy?: most definitely. if its a happy song.

LOVE
how many times have you had your heart broken?: i dunno... many i guess.
do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others?: definitely. but one must learn to let go and live for the present.
have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: yes.
did you ever love a guy/girl, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply?: not 'thanks' as a reply. that would have been real hurting..
ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry?: sometimes, yes
has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?: yes
ever stopped a relationship because they didn't say 'i love you'?: love is more than what u say or show on the surface.

HATE
who do you actually hate?: noone. myself sometimes? lol
ever made a hit list?: depends on what 'hit' means.
have you ever been on a hit list?: i hope not.
are you a mean bully?: nah.. maybe last time in primary school i was naughty and playful, but imagine me bullying someone... ludicrous
do you hate anyone that broke your heart?: quoted from ee ling: how could u hate someone who had your heart?
do you hate George Bush?: no. being a president aint an easy job. i respect ppl for who they are.

SELF-ESTEEM
is your self-esteem extremely low?: quite low, not extremely.
do you believe in yourself?: sometimes
when people say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are?: i always deny.. i dun think i look good at all.
are you happy with who you are?: sometimes.
do you wish you could be someone else?: it would be cool to be yourself and have someone else's look. lol. kidding i am who i am.

after browsing through eeling's past entries, i found this, and decided to do it as some of the questions were quite meaningful and were part of my occassional thoughts. other than that, school sux, common tests got C, O, F, F. ahem. cut hair, which looks like shit (i really am NOT gonna cut hair anymore). watched russell peters. having not trained for 2 months, my strength has dropped by 3/5 of the original i think. that sux. gonna train up already. but tt means im gonna lose weight again.. oh well. tts all for now.

2005-06-27T17:26:00.000+08:00

to poop with common tests!! WAHA! the first 2 papers are over!! woohoo! i dunno but i didnt really read much and i only got news of the history test last night at around 8pm. WOW. ok. so last minute rushing of information allows u to remember better? or was it the fact that i normally wake quite late everyday, while i woke early today? (ppl say irregular sleeping times make ur memory better XD) or was it the fact that i laughed hell lot last night due to my mom's crazily funny way of speaking?! (i dun think any other mom in the world speaks like her.. @_@) oh well. but i seemed to remember the facts through simple glancing through!! i guess the arms race topic was quite interesting. oh well, that doesnt mean ill score well, i wrote skimpily so id better not talk so much XD peiling! we'll see who lower! :P anw, yea gp and history down. econs... blah i cant even remember what i read. i read international trade and i forget national income. i read money and i forget international trade. SO FUN! ^^ heh, practically dead. but u noe the best thing about this type of situation is, to stay happy and make fun of it instead of feeling sad. this is called: FLEXIBLE RESPONSE ROFL. yups. i shall go study econs le. in my dreams. ;) oh and the holidays? i ENJOYED IT and haf NO REGRETS of NOT STUDYING. :D:D:D

hmm..

2005-06-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

Your #1 Match: ISFP

The Artist
You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.
You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

Your #2 Match: ESFP

The Performer
You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.
You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

Your #3 Match: INFP

The Idealist
You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.
You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #4 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer
You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.
You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

Your #5 Match: ISTP

The Mechanic
You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations.A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent.To outsiders yous eem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable.You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people.
You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete.

What's" Your Personality Type?

ok here goes. RELIGION

2005-06-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

i feel that, yes religion does give u faith and belief, and the motivation and love of being loved is a powerful tool to success and security, but i think i just wanna believe there is a god, and appreciate that he is always there, and this recognition i find it quite adequate. i really .. dun wanna go for any church thing... i wouldnt say it restricts my freedom but, i wouldnt say it doesnt either. id like to remain a freethinker and let my god believe in me as i do believe there is a higher being above. and ive been to a few church meetings. the ppl are great, the processions are meaningful... but somehow i cant find what i need or want to find, according to a friends description. yes we must open our hearts to him and accept him, but that can be done at a mental/spiritual level which doesnt need physical presence. im not a guy chiseled for religion ... im too flighty and carefree to ... sorta make it a point to be settled down in one. but, i do believe in miracles that god can give us, and most of all, i do believe in moving tales that people tell me, and yes i do believe there is a god above. yea when u talk about the nice things and miracles that occur, u cant not believe there is a god around. and this feeling is a warm feeling of security and acceptance, of the fact that a higher being above sacrifices for us and looks over us. such worthy actions are indeed worth our action of gratitude, though god doesnt demand anything in return im sure. yup.

the spiritual communion between us and this higher being is, powerful. those who haf had a brush with death will be much more into religion because they find that life is so precious, and that someone out there must haf saved them. i guess im too stagnant/lethargic to get such a feeling... or maybe im not enthu enough. sometimes i dun even feel like going out to play when my friends ask me to. its all a matter of perception. yes i do 'wow' at those god-created miracles. i respect such happenings and acknowledge the creator. but id like to keep it at that respectable level and not one of worship. yet. not anytime now.

ahh yes the fact that god created us. yea... its truely mystical and magical about this omnipresence, this higher being who moulded us into what we are today. god is as real as anyone would be if u pinch him/her. that is absolutely true. god created us, then sacrificed to help wash our sins away, a truly noble act and worthy of our respect. i believe god respects everyone of us as much as we respect him. god can be any form of god. buddha, ala, jesus, all can be called god, and this is an affirmation in our hearts that someone great exists for which scientific reason cannot explain. god has gives everyone a chance, and appears unexpectedly in our lives to change us. tts what miracles are for. and by doing that, he did it of his own free will. we didnt give him a chance to come into our lives, we just accept the fact, and he comes into our lives of his own will. thus this spiritual relation exists on a mental or metaphysical realm, and the degree of commitment varies, but the respect is constant. as long as one recognises god is present, i think he will be more than content, and if we do not sin, we are all..followers of god, having a relation with him, undeniably linked to him in our thoughts and actions, marvelled when he makes an appearance in our lives, not by chance, by choice. having a relation can be on a mental level, not necessarily physical. sometimes, friends care for each other much more than what they show on the surface. yea its wonderful to experience the love of god that my friend has told me about, and wants to share it with me by bringing me closer to god, but god in all his grace and glory, will open the hearts of people and lead them in the correct path, like our destiny has been written out for us. sometimes, we can approach such a matter in a detached way. haha i really appreciate my friend sharing such life changing experiences. its shocking. my life has changed ALOT as well... with or without god i dunno. but the fact that changes in our lives are the silent work of god, can mean choosing to silently repay this impact is ... adequate. by accepting what he does and not sin, we are in fact, following him and moving with his grace, not sinning. jesus loves all of us! just as we love the fact that he exists and his wonderful love for us. thus by accepting this we are opening our hearts. i can easily open my heart to him.. its quite an easy task to do requiring little flexibility. just like friends: we have so many friends that its impossible to care and haf a close relation with everyone of them, thus hi-bye friends occur, and to know someone doesnt necessarily require a close relation. a universalist like me would rather believe in the general God which exists, in a detached way, meaning free from all the physical presentation. yes god yearns for all of us to follow him. and only thru a close relation with jesus can we get to the Father. the fact that jesus wants to show he is a living god, means he is gvnig us the opportunity to follow him; quoted from the bible, by my friend. but i choose to follow him, of my own free will. in a detached way. well, i believe god respects our decision. in times of fear, we pray to God though sometimes we dont worship him. why? becoz in our hearts god exists always. and this silent detached form of 'worship' is quite enough for me.

Religion truly is a baffling thing, something that we choose, to follow or not to follow. why are there so many different representations of god? when all we need to believe in is just his omnipresence, and respect such a belief? the fact that many gods exist show uncertainty. beautiful is such a certainty, yet uncertainty is more beautiful. id like to live in a world of uncertainty, where miracles come to drop a sparkle in ur life. no direct references or criticism in here at all, just an open discussion and what i feel. so, im temporarily, not ready to attend any church or be a christian. god bless.

woohoo

2005-06-08T00:59:00.000+08:00

ok the best thing i did in my life today: i sorted out my notes once and for all. the bad part of it: i found a silverfish longer than my fingernail. oh how could i leave my notes unattended for so loong! ~~ yea right. i just left them in the storeroom only ma.. who would expect the 'sea' of notes to have fishes in it XD

yay! life rox!
so badly.
its the glorious 2-week-left holiday! such satisfaction is gained when one pons an econs remedial. wonderfully subtle was my sleep during the 8am-12pm literature remedial... i hardly snored! *not that i do* sigh... not many events are present these days to brighten up my life... but hey, other animate objects do - u guys reading my blog, and all my friends out there! heh. friends brighten up ur life. they're like little specks of stars scattered across the night sky, without them it would be just a dark, dull sky. like the stars so precious up above, our frens so wonderful down below.tts wad frens are for: we look out for each other just like the twinkling stars in the sky harmonise to produce a warm glownig light :) lol why am i so literary all of a sudden... o well. late nights mess wif ur mind :D

watched a beautiful mind recently. a mental thriller, taking u across the planes of metaphysical, physical, and delusional realms, exploring the depths of a, beautiful mind. one of my favourite shows, never a moment boring with the twists and turns and subtly distressing mental changes of professor john nash. but the show did bring up a good point: u control who you are. the mind is all powerful, and as long as u haf the will do to what u want, u can achieve it. other than that..been watching shows like turn left turn right, dry wood fierce fire, love undercover, and other nice chinese romance-comedy shows. never gets boring. talking about turn left turn right, i wun forget how aiping lent me money to buy the vcd on that day :) i really like having nice talks wif frenz. and yup, aipnig's a nice fren whom i can talk to :)

ok another highlight: i love cycling and cycled on mark's bike around the school for 1 hour plus. beginnnig was abit wobbly as i dun cycle often, even fell sometimes, but then it got enjoyable. i went home like a tomato. it was scorching. the OM knew that i suppose. *notice i use 'suppose*. cycling gives me such relaxation and the sensation of freedom.. ahh.. insatiable. couldnt get enough of it. the opportunity cost was the 'comfort' of having a sunburn. ok what am i talking about... -.-

i went for ns medical checkup! and in the midst of the blood taking, i saw... JIMMY. rofl. ok. the finger pricking thing... was numbing. technology sure is advanced. long gone are the days where the doctor will use a needle and MANUALLY prick ur finger, while offering a sweet thinking that can cure the pain of MULTIPLE tries to get a DROP of blood. wow. interesting. anyway, now they use a gun like small mechanism. snap, u just feel a numb sensation, followed by an itching-biting sensation as he draws the blood thru a tube. the 'doctors' are ns personnel... which makes one even more nervous. ok... blood drawing via the forearm. god was i nervous. but hey, it was painless! a tornique was put ard my bicep for the vein to show, and tt reduced the feeling in my lower arm. coupled with the doctor 'painting' my arm with alcohol... the needle went in like in was goin into cheese. i watched it... squirmish eh. the whole checkup took 6 hrs. i didnt know i wasnt supposed to wear contacts, so i had to wait additional 30min for my eyes to get adjusted. the iq test/ survey was a pain.. it seemed an eternity before i finally said hi to the bus driver. oh well. the troubles of an efficient security system. ironic? up to u to decide :P

okie dats about everything that happened so far. other than that life is contained within an LCD screen, 2 speakers, a mouse, keyboard, and cpu. cya ard frenz. o. and. study hard during the hols!!! coughzz..

OMG CHEERLEADING ROX

2005-04-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

had ALOT of fun and laughter today. will never forget such fun and nice days. i love my friends! :DDDD panther jia you!

battle royale ROX!! alot of morals behind it! what we say now might not be what we do under a state of panic... i dunno ... i will jump off. i trust my friends... i will die with no regrets if my friend kills me; at least i go knowing that i haf such nice frens "D afterall, if u haf no friends, being alive is of no use, not to mention the guilt and horror that haunts u till insanity. i wont let them win/control me.

happy birthday youjun! real sorry counldnt go for the party.. :(

2005-04-23T10:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YU YING

2005-04-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

NAPFA

2005-04-07T11:48:00.000+08:00

it wasnt a very smooth night last night as i tossed and turned in bed thinking about all sorts of things. i had a very nice chat with a fren yesterday during cca, and i did my homework while talking. two libras conversing... hmm. talked about lots of meaningful stuff. yea.. then i went home and surprisingly i was aching in my legs and arms! probably all the running away from teachers has exhausted me.. XD anw, i went to sleep psychoing myself that i would do my best for NAPFA the next day. it was gruelling... after the 5 items(i tyco got C for standing broad jump), my muscles were taut and abit strained. i sprayed deep heat many times lol... and ate two bananas in the morning. i dunno if its because of that or the wheat grass yoghurt that i drank last night that made me shit 4 times this morning. omg. or issit just the pre-napfa syndrome. i was scared... butterflies in me stomach made me anxious and wanting to shit. well... i tried my best. i was rather satisfied with my shuttle run. though my legs were sort of shivering before the pe teacher shouted go, i told myself to give my all... and since the last time where i got lame E grade for shuttle run, i made an effort to refine my technique and improve. yay. sit and reach was abit tough as i did not do my 1 week stretching as i would usually do. i was rather slack this napfa... didnt train much. yup... the other sections were quite ok. it really gives a sense of zest and warmth to see people struggle and do their best, wanting to perform. there were people who kept trying, wanting to achieve the grade they want. yup. the last item was GRUELLING. the weather was so HOT. i juz ran thru it... pia all the way. my legs were so stiff... its finally over... sense of accomplishment, tired. okie tata, in room 212 now, under ms lee's nose. XD

touching...

2005-04-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

failure is the stepping stone to success. turn left turn right was so touching... cried many times. sometimes lovers who are meant to be are so close, yet so far. however in the end, fate will bring them together, in time. sometimes ppl who arent meant for us will seem to want to noe us, and we so irritatingly lose the ones destined for us. Is fate so cruel as to brush away coincidences which are actually moments that we will treasure forever? sometimes we just haf to look closer, that person is right around, somewhere. the movie had a happy ending :) who will i meet? only time will tell. if u fail at something, never back down, keep trying... thats how takeshi and gigi leung got together in the end... power of love! lol omg i went over the top.

saturday was fun. very. i enjoyed it. alot. shop/talk was fun. super. i loved eating. duper. r-e-s-p-e-c-t, we all gotta haf that for each other :)

2005-03-27T08:50:00.000+08:00

one of the sweetest memories

2005-03-06T16:20:00.000+08:00

if u haf trouble reading the whole entry, go to the 'previous posts' link. yesterday, 5th march 2005(saturday), i had one of the most enjoyable times of my life. It was service learning day. we started out by meeting up at 7.45, which dragged till around 8.15 coz sky was late. he thought the meeting time was 8.30. anw, dwayne, denise, jasper, yuying, maryam, georgia, sky, jieyi and me(correct me if there's more, me memory sux)met up and took a bus to the home in serangoon i think. gideon, gayle, vanessa, yijun, aiping, youjun were there already, and ms ng came along as well. ok we went into the centre, which wasnt too big, but had chairs, sofas, food, 3 computers, and a well-hidden toilet(thought it was a storeroom). The kids ranged from as young as 6 yrs old to 13 yrs old. We went mixing around with the kids, and some of them had attitude prob... some just wouldnt talk or respond. well cant blame them since this is something new for them, and some of them arent born under good family condition. so yea, next we got into groups, and me and vanessa took the 9 yr olds. pavitrah, mark, jacey, zheng kuang, fuzly(not sure about the spelling) were in the group, and we warmed up by playing ice-breaker games like memory game in which everyone had to memorise each others names and then followed by the 'evolution game' where everyone played scissor paper stone. it was lotsa fun. it was a warm feeling of satisfaction and acceptance when the kids called us 'kor kor' and 'jie jie', and it made the bond closer. we tried our best to interact and were quite successful except for fuzly who was rather quiet the whole time. next we had a prelude of the banana dance, which georgia and vanessa demonstraed. i loved the groovy rhythm. georgia was the head of the whole thing, and she sure played her role; an organised and firm leader. Denise was one of the heads too.

it was time to move down to pasir ris park. thats where most of the fun took place. i cant remember everything, but basically we played lots of games. there was this game where georgia held a grenade, and whenever she tossed it up, we had to run as far away from where the grenade landed as possible, and all lie down by the count of 4. it was exciting and tested how alert we were. those who didnt lie down would haf their points deducted(the whole time we played a point-scoring system). there were other games which tested our teamwork, like making the children stand within a folded piece of newspaper, and we had to keep folding the newspaper until ppl could no longer stand within. we lost. next was the tangle game, in which everyone criss-crossed hands and had to untagle them with our hands still locked... it was so messy. we just stood there ni the same position, and lost. lol. gideon's group won the newspaper thing coz he carried them! lol. maryam's group won the tangling thing. dwane and jasper did loads of training by carrying children on their backs, and mark tan, gideon, and denise brought sunglasses. next was the clothes peg game which the children had to use only one hand to take the clothes peg off the clothes hanger. we didnt win that too haha. then there was this banana dance competition in which every group would haf to devise something unique. we won the dance! haha. thx to vanessa's ideas. yep, the group was happy and contented, and me and vanessa took turns to bring the kids to the toilet. i treated them to drinks and stuff. i was SHOCKED when the malay uncle there said 'xie4 xie4'(thank you) in chinese to me LOL. and i said 'bu ke qi' LOL.

next was the treasure hunt game. i hope i can still remember the list...
1. 3 strands of white hair.
2. a t-shrit
3.2 hair ties
4. a tshirt
5.a textbook
6.pink jacket
7.green sock
8. 20 diff flowers
9. toe ring
10. 4 pairs of shoe laces
11. 3 sea shells
hmm... me memory ends here but there were 20 items -.-
ok for green socks i took 2 leaves and tried to fake LOL. but vanessa drew them on paper which was even better LOL! for the flowers, we found around 10 diff types or less... and vanessa again drew the rest. LOL the names were so funny!!!! yellow sunflower orange sunflower blue sunflower hahahhaha. omg. the toe ring... she used the water bottle ring!! LOL. textbook ... the pokemon book didnt count. the pink jacket... i tried to use the pink plastic bags which were holding the food but that didnt work either. haha damn fun lar. lunch was ok. some malay food which was good. some of the kids were scared to open the packet coz they didnt noe how haha. there was this guy who roller bladed in nothing but UNDIES LOLOLOL! and there was this cool bike gang who did real cool stunts on the rocks!

yep then came chasing. i was kinda fascinated with climbing up and down the rocks. so fun. i got caught a few times and ran around like mad shouting LOL. damn funny. exhausting too. i remember my shoe got wet when i went too near the sea water, so i had to dry them in the sun. i nearly got blisters walking on the ground and our class had a 'see who can stand the longest on the hot ground without being burnt' competition. "D
ok next up was the building of sand castles!! SO FUN! i only build sand castles once, and doing that again was a real thrill. at first i didnt really relish the thought of dirtying my hands with the sand, but in the end i was digging away :) we used a cup to make cute little mounds on the castle, and even dug deep trenches. There was this exceptionally long and heavy pole lying around and some ppl used it to write lame stuff... yup, we even drew a dolphin and wrote our group name dolphin on the sand, below our castle. other groups included 'lie cheat steal', 'catwoman' and 'fireworks' and.. 'batman'? LOl. i got loads of pink flowers and we lay them in the trenches, and decorated the rest of the castles with seashells. a pretty and heartwarming sight of satisfaction. then we took some group photos, and it was back to the gathering area. During rest times, the children ran about, played soccer, chatted with us, and even ran around collecting huge leaves ... their innocent and boisterous nature made me reminiscent of my own childhood... it was a very heartwarming and meaningful thought... a sense of longing for the past... haiz. standing at the beach, looking out to that vast expanse of blue sea, letting the breeze blow in ur face and stream thru ur hair... al ur troubles just go with the wind, and u feel so carefree and happy.
next we went to the playground! gosh the playground was BIG. there was this huge disc in which everyone sat on it and it would spin around in a diagonal angle. it was SO fun man. then there was this cable car thing which was also very fun. the spider web was banned as it was very dangerous. I missed the see-saws... me and maryam and vanessa had a ball of a time on the 3-seat see-saw. didnt get to play the swings though coz we were busy pushing the kids who wanted to play the 'cable car' thingy. then we realised our kids were missing! so me and vanessa went on a long search for them but to no avail. then suddenly they reappeared. lol jasper's group had bryan... a trouble kid who didnt follow anything we told him. it was ... annoying. yep. after everything, which ended at around 6pm... we returned to the home. after so many hours..one would obviously be tired. but i wasnt, neither were the rest of 34/04, coz the kids brightened up our day. it was real sad as the kids left one by one. me and vanessa even suggested bringing them out to cycle during the march holidays etc. anw, we were a great team, and hi 5 everyone! they were so loveable and adorable... so cute. ok i did a silly thing. i was flinging my old shirt around and it landed on the 1st floor ledge, and the malay auntie had to use a bamboo stick to help me. lotsa time was wasted. sky did it in the end. our hero. so much for a shrit that maybe didnt even cost $10. -.- ok dinner and pool! dinner was fun, in a cozy and quiet corner in the open. it was dark during evening time, and it made the atmosphere even more conducive. we talked about lotsa things and had ms ng share her life story and recount our own life stories. i dunno why georgia laughed every 3 words i spoke. o well. played pool till 11.30. SO FUN!!! i never had so much fun in pool! i had lotsa luck that night. teamed with gayle multiple times, and vanessa too. lol lucky team won. high five! but it was 3v2. vanessa was like running from table to table to play coz she was involved in 2 games at once. lol. she was real hyped up about pool. georgia had her first try at pool, and her stance was so funny, like a ballad dancer. haha but she did well. denise tried too. :) Had loads of fun and laughter. took a cab home with jasper and he lent me money. a real nice guy :) haha our parents were both slightly angry. :( anw woke up today with red face... sun burn. sian. but luckily face wasnt as red as yest... yest i was a walking tomato. :D so there goes... longest entry ever, and best day of me life. i think the 2nd is the barbecue. lol. wadeva... 34/04 ROX. ciao

hello hsienjun. where art thou?

2005-03-02T23:37:00.000+08:00

hi world. i feel so... shitty these days. its just sleep sleep and sleep. so tired... if there is a god, let him help me out thru this. ive no idea how im gonna carry on this life. its boring, mundane, routine... wadeva... stuff that isnt to my liking. heng got frenz in sch to share that burden... its like... where has all the enthusiasm gone to... im just a living corpse. nothing in my life to spice things up... where has all the motivation gone to? i dunno but studies just doesnt seem viable... it doesnt even cross me mind... im just like a carefree guy who lives each day as it passes, and yet i feel so troubled... its me conscience. i noe all this is not good and it means things arent going as they shd be, in the right direction. i noe i haf to stop it. but the escapist mentality just hits me and i just wander off into another realm. am i really that lazy. argh... i tell myself i can do it. i tell myself miracles happen... but in actual fact... i was just lucky. i guess. the 99% hard work still has to be put in. and i wonder when... i think im at 1% work... at least sometimes i bother to copy. wow i havent been so negative in a long time. i just woke up from a 1.5 hr nap... and am having a headache. sometimes in life u just need some nice things to cheer u up. such things are people. friends. and the stuff u like. i try to socialise more often. haiz. i guess i juz need to haf a goood long talk with someone. maybe mom? friends? teachers? even the principle. why not. im open to anything, anyone. maybe its the just-wake up pessimistic mood... yep. but this is basically wads bugging me. i need to destress from stressing myeslf out. lol.

ok aside from self-pity... today gp we discussed about war and all that. ive been watching a series of war shows including 'we were soldiers', 'life is beautiful', and 'black hawk down'. they remind me of another 2 movies ive watched: 'tears of the sun', and 'the pianist'. i particularly like war shows because they touch something sensitive within us. it can make us cry. its so scary to think that here u are in a safe country enjoying life everyday, when in other countries, people are dying every moment. those horrible graphic scenes of people dying in gruesome pain just makes u cringe. we know too little of the harshness of war... we are too pampered... those soldiers out there... u rock. its so saddening to see that the soldiers have families waiting for them to return safely, and when they die... they say things like 'look after my daughter for me.' sobs. another thing i liked was the phrase 'nobody is to be left behind'. it really shows the huge friendship and teamwork bond in times of crisis and danger. everyone watches each others back, regardless of skin colour. everyone works together as a team, never alone. yea... thats war. bitter.

seen the principle 2 times. today forgot to see him at 12.15. haf to go cut hair again. sian. i dunno... but i somehow look diff. haha must be i eat too much liao. oh well... one has no time to care about looks anymore when he is so tired out. i need a break. oh heavenly march holidays i worship u. ... the heat wave is ending. oh glorious rain. ur finally here. had a nice talk with gayle in nexus today. nice talks are fun. esp when nice things are discussed that really is 'food' for thought. or rather, though provoking. oh well. o cindy and hwee sian came back today to watch soccer match. yup. me and sky were there till like 6 pm. so hot and tired ... :( but had fun talking though. im lost. i haf to find myself. im floundering in the sea of ... of.... of........?! of wad?! i dunno. not love. not hate. im so... dead... but yet im not coz i can become lively again. ahh. i think i shdnt think so much. i go sleep again le. cya.

Happy birthday Aiping!!

2005-02-26T11:54:00.000+08:00

happy birthday vanessa quay! now who's next?

2005-02-19T13:19:00.000+08:00

IM BAAAAACK

2005-02-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

LOL I FINALLY FEEL LIKE BLOGGING AGAIN!! but only for this once :P in a crazy mood now :XD SO many things have happened recently. Firstly, HAPPY NEW YEAR! and, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EE LING!!! yay. ok cross country had me aching for a day or two, and the run itself was gruelling. I managed to run thru the whole thing... dunno how i did that. Vanessa got 3rd with a timing of 19 minutes!! OMG thats like 9 minutes plus for each 2.4km!!!? WHOA rox..

Yep, got into alot of trouble recently with the teachers. Been seeing ms ng for like gazillion times. actually less than 10. even had a councilling session with mrs leow. Had fun and relaxing talks, but it got serious. :( aiya im juz plain lazy woohoo. yuppie.... wad else. Last friday, celebrated ee ling's bdae. wanted to watch constantine but all slots were booked! omg.. so we shopped, with me arriving late at around 6. PS is SOO crowded nowadays, such that we had to walk around in search of a place to sit down and EAT. we settled down at burger king, and i foolishly queued at a counter with NO ONE there to serve me, till i realised that there was NO ONE there to serve me meaning that the QUEUE WAS DEAD! they shd haf 'closed'the counter or something bleah. so the girls bought their stuff while i had to re-queue. T_T. yuppie, den came a very fun and interesting talk in which i laughed myself crazy. Gayle and vanessa were SO FUNNY. LOL. yea, enjoyed myself. sorry eeling about no present :( heez i think that session alone i talked more than i haf ever talked in lessons. sch is boring admit it :P

tmr got test ar!? and wad am i doing? LOL yay fail le. tmr release at 1.35. test at 4.45.LOL. after that den study la! or shd it be used for sleep?! :D"D woohoo. happy mood. OH YA i didnt bai nian at all. no ang baos :( but i think i missed all the TONNES OF SWEETS THAT I WOULD KOP more than the ang baos :P my pockets would be FULL OF nuts and sweets and wadeva!! woohoo lolz. but it was also troublesome and tiring and as usual, i wouldnt talk mch in groups, so it would be real boring. yea, been playing warcraft 3 like mad, reach home do nothing but play. hsien ar hsien, this year a levels leh........ THATS WHY MUST PLAY MORE B4 I FINALLY GET DOWN TO MUGGING!LOL. eehee. georgia has a new catch!! RAINBOW!! whoopie. feel happy for her. go gal, he's a drop-dead shuai ge! all the best. yup, valentines day coming, im single! WOOHOO im so happy! means ill get to spend time with ME MOM!!! LOOOL. kidding. hey valentines day can also be for spreading love to everyone u care about ok :P yaaay. lets see, gonna do facial, bathe, eat supper, wash up, sleep!

hmm... school sux sux sux.. teachers' tempers are getting worse, esp ms ng's patience... its wearin thin. Florence Lee's temper is the only one that remains the same. she's quite nice :) yep... sian la. i cant remember anything else that hapened... oh yea life journeys... LOL damn funny... esp jaspers one... loads of pain ><>

oh how cud i forget, CIP!! it was such good training la carrying LOADS of stuff, and not to mention sight-seeing as well ;)

2005-01-09T22:42:00.000+08:00

oh can it really be?! i owe 8 more essays!! wow thank god thats little -.- look on the brighty sidey guys and girlys!! orientation is over!

2005-01-09T22:38:00.000+08:00

seems like everyone's too busy to blog. lets face it. homework sux, sch doesnt :) sian

2005-01-06T01:06:00.000+08:00

happy new year 2005 everybody!

2004-12-31T16:34:00.000+08:00

Too bad im a Libra. Adapted from pop-star/actor Miriam Yeung's song, 'Too bad im an aquarius' -_- nothing to blog. sch reopen, sian.

2004-12-31T02:55:00.000+08:00

i wanna take more neoprints!!! only took two in the hols T_T

2004-12-27T16:38:00.000+08:00

christmas is over! school gonna reopen :( weird tt im bloggin at such an hour @_@ oh well

2004-12-27T02:10:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

2004-12-25T00:57:00.000+08:00

one must know that somethings arent meant to be said; know when to say the right thing. it helps

2004-12-22T11:13:00.000+08:00

these are the days

2004-12-19T02:14:00.000+08:00

long time since i blogged. dunno if ppl still visit this cob-web infested place, but oh well, i juz felt like writing something.

Here's a recollection of events: cycling trip with 'family' at east coast park was enjoyable, but very hot, and it left me with a headache. cycling is so shiok... going at a fast speed and having the wind streaming thru ur hair juz blows all ur troubles away... gone with the wind. im sorta up in the clouds recently... feeling weird, like im a robot devoid of feeling, just going thru daily life without purpose.

next was celebrating shawn's 17th bdae. had fun talking cok. eric took pics every step. we even put the camera inside a neoprint box and took pics -_- took neoprint but chose only 2 out of 4 pics... ran out of time while choosing lol. yep, more lan gamin sessions etc.

saw a movie called hurricane. there was this part about writing. writing is magic, even though enclosed in a jail cell, writing gives u the ability to see the outside world, be connected with those who are at the same time writing stories. its about this guy called hurricane, who was wronged and jailed for life. in jail, he told himself, not to want, to deprive himself of all thoughts of worldly matters. i wonder if tts how we should lead our lives. wanting breeds lots of emotional hazards. greed. jealousy. and jealousy is something corrupt, and is surfacing everywhere, even with friends. i think we should all let loose a little and taek things as they come. the show was very touching as it showed the mans will to fight on, together with the willingness of others to help. yep.

Went out today to do some hist research, bought and drank slurpee in the library, fell asleep, read books. photocopied info, den ate a light dinner at pasta mania. talked more cok. shopped and looked at numerous clothes and gifts. christmas comin, an uncelebrated occassion for me, but i still wish all merry c'mas, enjoy it. bdaes comin for the new year. hmm, hope i dun forget em. gifts... the meaning behind it? leave it to ya'll.

sometimes, a human can think too much, and this aggravates the situation such that he/she thinks of all kinda weird things that may raise doubt or lower confidence. motivation. ive lost it. excellence, being above the rest, but yet with the rest, is hard to achieve. improvement. something we must all have. but being too keen on improvement will only create self doubt and invite frustration with self. over eagerness to improve will only bring more heartache when ur close scrutiny tells u there's no noticeable improvement. everyone is improving slowly. juz keep to what u like, and, naturally without much notice, and with happy thoughts, ull improve. take things easy in life, we only live once, meet nice friends, keep in touch, and wadeva. its 2am and i cant think straight. tried to train abit. havent ran on a treadmill since start of hols. o well. cut hair? nah, wanna haf fun with the om again. this time ill hide me pass. ogl workshop was fun. had fun filming it. esp on the last day when all of them did the cheers. duckda(how u spell?) made me sit in the centre and rotate about while they screamed their cheers at me lol. boring to film from a bystander view, yea but i get to see teamwork and stuff. its tough for those ogls. yep, rest well everyone. i hate to be stressed out, tts why im takin things ez. havent done any hol hw. dead.

libra libra, 2nd october. whats ur horoscope? well, ive been reaaal dreamy lately. thinkin bout all sorts of things. but horoscopes never fail to fascinate me. wads my purpose in life, as a libra, wad traits do i possess, which zodiac goes well with me, etc. i find it rather meaningful, and yes its juz a general characterisation, but hey, im bored :P but it really does give a greater insight into ppl's char, and most of it is true, so handling ppl will be easier. :) they say im a conversationalist... well, not in a grp definitely. depends on me mood too. i like conversing with ppl 1to1. its nice. hmm oh ya. and i dun like conversing when sitting side by side. i feel... awkward lol. i like face to face. :) or any other position that isnt too squeezy. a free bird :D
omg enuff crap already. nitez. bb

cranky hsien

daily stuff

2004-12-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

nearly missed the most important thing that happened these past few days. my com was repaired! but tts coz my sis did a system restore!!!! -_- i lost quite alot of data, but luckily all my personal files still intact, so i had to spend loads of time re-installing them. yay, but at least i can surf net and wad not, and me com's now totally problem free :)

i love indian food. i love the prata, the murtabak(is that how u spell it?), the roti john, the spaghetti... ahhh.. there's always that tinge of spiciness in them, and they are always very tasty, never a bland or sucky taste. the drinks at that 'alamin' shop rox too. milo milkshake, milo dinosaur... haha... im gonna get fat soon.

basically everything's been the same. i think i gave up training le. too sian to move :D about singapore idol... sylvester made several slips in his songs. dunno if u guys caught it or not, but he didnt hit the right pitch or tone a few times. and wad is this, the judges purposely want him to lose wan, give him such a dfificult song like 'its my life' to sing... while they gave taufik such easy songs. after 'its my life', sylvester like lost his voice le... and somemore he was sick that day lor. the an jing... got one high note he couldnt reach... haiz.. well the rocker has lost but will still be a winner. Taufik did better that performance no doubt.. but i doubt he will make it in the charts.. he can only sing english songs while sly can sing both chinese and english. so... we'll see. but it was a spectacular singapore idol show. i feel the show was very well done for a singapore show, and gurmit singh was quite entertaining. overall, this show rocked.

went to play pool yesterday and learnt some new tips. well firstly, i suck at breaking at the start. the ball always go other direction instead of straight, so yea corrected that. played abit den went mos burger drink strawberry milkshake... it was nice. dunno if u guys haf experieced it b4 but, i hate the biting pain when cold stuff touches me teeth/gums. on the way back there were these girls asking for donations... one whole coupon $24 and they actualy thought that i would have the money...

this must be the 5th time ive watched 'dry wood fierce fire' already. doesnt seem to get boring. the person who dubbed louis koo.. his voice is soo funny at the right times. yup i believe ive already talked alot about this show so ill... skip it. watched old movies over again coz i was too bored. movies like casino raider, the mummy, and what not. oh ya last night i watched a show called 'crush'... its about this psycho 14 year old super-pretty girl who has random crushes on guys much older than her, and she will KILL in order to get them. yup... interesting thriller.

There's this game i played sometime ago which puts u in the place of a parent raising a daughter. depending on ur method of bringing the child up for 8 years, she will take on different jobs and either get married or stay single. its quite nice... coz it gives a fake scenario of raising a child and how ur actions will affect him/her.

yup... basically a very very boring holiday. though ive gone out plenty of times le, i still feel bored. though ive been chatting on msn plenty, i still feel bored. and no ive not touched any homework yet, or read/revised anything... dont think i will anyway. sighz.. 6th and 7th must go back for AVA duty for OGL workshop... im going all the 5 days and its like... i might as well attend the thingy -_- sigh... till next time.. bb

hsienny

dry wood fierce fire

2004-11-29T10:11:00.000+08:00

i fell in love with this show coz its SOOO NICE. not only is it a super funny romantic comedy show, it stars my idol, louis koo(gu3 tian1 le4). the plot is superb and the love... just great. it can make u laugh AND cry... wow... i really enjoyed it and even recorded it down on tape. here's the summary, copied off a webpage.

While sometimes forced and a little clumsy, this ultra-light romantic comedy features an amiable comic tone and a fun pairing of Miriam Yeung and Louis Koo.

It features an offbeat, slightly strange female lead in Miriam Yeung, and a handsome male lead in Louis Koo. The two play coworkers in an office setting, and like Needing You the threat of gossip and office politics is always around. Furthermore, the two don't have a lot in common at first, but form a burgeoning friendship due to mutual respect and a few convenient plot devices. Then a third party (played by Flora Chan) gets in the way, so our two heroes must admit their feelings or face life without each other. Or something like that. Yep, just like Needing You.

Alice (Miriam Yeung) works for "Ladies," a female-only magazine. However, publisher Michelle (Flora Chan) decides to merge "Ladies" with "Gents", an all-male magazine that employs Ryan (Louis Koo) as one of the chief editors. As you'd expect, this leads to your standard male/female office politics, but the quirky quotient is upped thanks to Alice's status as a fourth-generation Chinese herbologist. That means Miriam Yeung gets to spend a good third of the film engaging in wacky cultural shtick, i.e. prescribing herbs at the office, cooking traditional remedies, and practicing kung-fu all over the place.

Alice's antics around the office provides most of the film's comedy until the film's real plot comes to light. Here it is: Alice finds Ryan incredibly attractive, but he's sort of a lout towards her. Still, the two become friends when Ryan falls for Michelle and vows to win her love. Alice decides to help Ryan win Michelle, not noticing until it's too late that her own affection is growing stronger. She hides her true feeling until Ryan discovers it. Then Ryan must choose between the two women, deciding who he really wants to live with for the rest of his life. Ryan's(Louis Koo)'s indecisive nature as a Libra also proves a problem here as he contemplates his emotions, and also which furniture to buy! He had to choose between a relation that gave him a comfortable happy feeling and another which gave him sparkles and adrenaline flow. He chose the latter as she was the one he truly loved.

Like all romantic comedies, the fun comes not in the outcome of the film, but in the journey. In that, Dry Wood Fierce Fire stalls, as the buildup to the eventual blessed union consists of wacky shit. Ryan and Alice shop for furniture but stop to fight with a beggar (Cheung Tat-Ming). They engage in Three's Company-type antics when Michelle visits Ryan, and Alice must hide herself in the fridge. They get their hands stuck together with epoxy, which means we get a short sequence of them holding hands. The comedy is certainly agreeable and fun, but nothing new occurs here.

Director Wilson Yip has a track record for terrific handling of character. That skill is lost here because he's directing a romantic comedy. When dealing with the horror trappings of Bio-Zombie or the cop soap opera of Bullets Over Summer, Yip has brought hidden depths to typically character-free genres. However, the usual romantic comedy situations at work here are too mechanical to allow for any hidden depths. There is the occasional moment that accomplishes much more (a dinner scene between Alice, Ryan and her parents is surprisingly affecting), but those moments are buried beneath recycled romantic comedy devices.

Still, the performers shore up the film's laziness. Louis Koo has shown surprising comedic instinct. In contrast to usual Libra-style "aw-shucks" romantic leads, Koo has shown the willingness to lampoon his own lady-killer image. His performances in this film and La Brassiere have opened up a whole new range of roles for him.

And, Miriam Yeung is a charming performer despite her limited repertoire of mouthy, innanely perky characters. Her comparison to Sammi Cheng is an understandable, but ultimately questionable one. Superficially, the two resemble one another, but the characters they play are quite different. Yeung is the quintessential "jade girl", the girl-next-door who charms thanks to her perky, pure-hearted attitude. Cheng's characters seem to have more complex emotions, and her acting style is natural and even deceptively subtle. Yeung is likable, but Cheng is currently the better actress.

Yup so there u go, another movie added into my favourites list, super romantic yet funny, a rare movie to catch. NOTHING beats hong kong films man... the plot and the way its filmed is just... too nice. :)
OH YEA and btw, MY COM's REALLY GARBLED UP! it may crash anytime, and im lucky to have internet explorer working again last night at about 12 or 1am. well, if it crashes, i cant blog anymore or read other ppl's blogs... :(

happy hsien ^^

late morning... or afternoon?

2004-11-28T15:45:00.000+08:00

i slept at 2am coz i went out to play lan till 11.30pm. woke up at 3pm today. just ate a humongous lunch. i noticed that sleeping later sorta makes u puff up more? no idea. anw, the reason why i woke so late is coz of the piling up of little sleep and the exhaustion of two days of ava duty. Its gruelling, just sitting there and wasting 8 hours away. there was nothing to do but occassionally take the video cam and record segments of the OGL activities. I didnt bring a book, so i couldnt read. My handphone games started to get annoyingly boring as well. yesterday, after OGL workshop and 4 plus, i reached home, bathed, den went out to lan at coronation, a 40 min bus ride there, in total travelling time would be 1 hr. i had a good sleep, and when i reached the lan shop my eyes couldnt open man... the contacts were so dry. heh, so i had to warm up first before really playing well. yea, and it was the usual sushi eating thingy at 9.30pm again. this time the sushi cost 10 dollars! but there was much more to eat. oh ya, never eat the raw salmon sushi. i thought it was nice, but since its raw, they put some japanese ginger or something under the salmon, and it just makes u wanna puke. i recall that time when playing lan i ate that, and had to swallow it coz there was no dustbin nearby. my face turned green i think, too bad it was dim in the lanshop so i couldnt see.

oh ya i forgot to talk about the OGL workshop itself. well, it started out in the reading room where they talked about stuff and gave things to copy down. The presbytarian high sec sch students were invited, and they were real fast learners of the dance later in the MPH. they also did a cheer for us, saying that aj rox. they were sort of right behind in the dance, like presbytarian students behind and aj students in front. well... yea but other than that, the students interacted with them alot and made them feel accepted. tt was quite nice to see. their cheer was great and united, not to mention loud. quite creative. hmm talking about cheers, the presbytarian peeps said we werent enthu enough lol. well.. i particularly like the vesta cheer(is that how u spell it? i dunno), the ooh, ah ah ah, ooh, ah ah ah thingy. creative and cool. lol. i filmed from the top of the MPH where the PE dept was nearby. it was soooooo boring. oh ya i forgot to mention a funny thing that happened to me, for the 2nd time so far i think. while in the toilet peeing, i pulled the pants too hard and the top button came off wth. so my pants was like ultra lose and would drop any moment, and i had to tuck out more to cover the zipless area. :( when i went to do pull ups to cure boredom, the pants nearly dropped off and lim kok wee walked by so... :S but luckily he din say anything. :D the 19th students council came back to watch. during ava duty, the camera ran outta batt and we had to borrow a cam from the teacher... tedious sia. there were two supervising teachers, ms ng(not carolyn ng, but a short and young one), and a big-sized guy. dunno his name. yea then lunch was next and it was chicky rice again. variety plz. i still recall one of the girls was whining about no vegetables, and her voice was that kinda very 'teh' type, so ya... abit funny in a cute way. then it was first aid briefing which was real funny. we were taught different types of wounds and how to treat them, how to treat fractures and dislocations by using slings made from bandages, how to use wire gauze, how to cure cramps/ cuts and bruises etc. so many 'dummies' were employed to 'demo'. yea, funny sia. halfway thru the mic sounded like it was continuosly farting. my fault, forgot to turn the main power on :S blur sotong. yep, then after the hands on session to make a real sling, and other demos of how to elevate ur legs above ur body level to let the blood flow back, the first aid session ended. oh ya, there was the mention of STD, and the 7 Rs. STD i forgot what it meant coz i was dozing off, but its definitely not seuxually transmitted disease. the 7 Rs, included Rest, dunno wad, dunno wad, dunno, dunno, dunno, rush to hospital. yea. then came debrief. it was REAL LONG, defeats the purpose of the word, BRIEF. yep tts all. ill update next time. bb

hsien

OGL WORKSHOP!!!!

2004-11-26T21:51:00.000+08:00

waliew today must be one of my siannest days... OGL workshop started around 8am, all the way to 4.30pm. and wad was i doing? i was in charge of taking video clips!! wow COOL. yea it sounded real cool in the beginning... 'wa i get to take video!' but den hor... haf to keep moving here movin there, take at diff angles, take every group in action... SIAN. it was rather fun re-living all those cheers and games... but from a 3rd party and non-participating view, it was rather boring. yea slacked around, slept on cupboards and chairs and tables, talked cock with yi xuan... talked with my friends... sigh. worse thing is, there were only two of us on duty. WORST thing is... today is only the first day. out of five days. cool.

Dances and all that were held in the reading room, and yea... it took ages for the dance steps to be slowly taught. caught a long nap on the table... nearly drooled on a cupboard, my previous sleepin place. hmm. glanced around and saw some ppl i knew in the workshop. yea... today was some sightseeing for me too. maryam, vanessa, yijun attended the OGL workshop. dwayne was the assisting councilor. yeap. i was SO BORED and cant believe i wasted 9 hrs just stoning and zuo boing. wa liew!! occupied myself with going to canteen buy food, buy drinks, go toilet, go do pull ups, and wad else... sleep. yea. there was free lunch provided. chicken rice that tasted like... rice, not chicken. i dunno maybe i was so sian that i lost taste. but it wasnt that lovely. talked cock with the photographic society ppl. well, gotta be sociable :) act cute and stuff... took photos of me sleeping T_T den after a long awaited wait, it finally ended. we gleefully followed the ppl to LT1, den realised how blur we were as we left all the AVA equipment back at reading room. ok we walked all the way back. door locked. *faint*. went back to take key. walked back to readin room. i looked worse than a fireman with all those equipment piled on me. two ppl carry everything. great. sian. recording room door locked, teachers having conference. mr lin not around. paiseh, walk in walk out. outside, no teacher watching, took packet of instant coffee mix. squeezed wadeva remaining hot water outta the flask. drank coffee. tasted like shit. but did wake me up a little. went home with yijun and another fren. talked about stuff. ate chocolate and cheese pancakes. full. went home. play solitaire showdown with contacts still on. tired. slept. woke up. am typing this now. stopping now. bb

dreamy hsien.

POLY

2004-11-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

had SVA filming today at 8pm... was raining and sky forgot to bring sunglasses, so my scene and his was not shot today. So i went to NYP with sky and talked about Singapore Idol over a macdonalds meal. Now this is where the real issue im gonna talk about now starts.

Sky's almost decided on going to poly. Wad is happenin to our class... sky said 'i like aj but i dun like the ppl'. Why is this happening?! our class is one of the most unique classes that ive ever been in, with strong personalities and characters. But has the balance btw such personalities tilted, to that of overpowering? to that of... cold treatment?! gosh... im feeling a mixture of confusion, sadness, and agitiation. Sky related to me scenarios of why he chose to go poly. Firstly, he talks with class 32 ppl more than our own class ppl. He doesnt have many friends, unlike in SRJC or his secondary school where things went fine. He feels so lonely, lacking motivation and communication, and doesnt feel accepted. He told me of things i never witnessed before, though a chance it may be a one-sided view, i accepted it there and then. He said that in math lessons, he sits alone, no one to talk to. In chinese lessons, he sits alone or with the chinese teacher. He said he tried to sit with the class, but they mostly ignored him or wad. I get different comments from different ppl about the truth of this but im just stating what he said, the arguing part comes later. I tried to persuade him, saying that if frens dont talk to u, it doesnt mean they dun treat u as one. For me eg, im rather introverted.. but i can still fit in i think. i told him about the disadvantages of poly, and how arguments and misunderstandings take both hands to clap; if he doesnt change his stand, ppl wont as well. I told him about being able to adapt to situations and be more flexible, and not just giving up 1 year of education just becoz of this. his reply was that he could find no happiness, that he wants a carefree, happy sociable life. I told him about all education systems being the same and that if u feel this way in jc, ull probably feel that way in poly as its to do with ur own character or perception. when ur mind is so focused on a problem and its solutin, u will be set on going poly, u only see one path and dun see the other solutions, tts why we must consider all factors ... going to poly is just like a temporary escape route, the problem still remains, with urself, the ability to adapt and all that thingy.

Yea and this is basically most of our long talk. Ppl say that if he doesnt wanna change how can we change... i dunno... bystanders, be the judge. Ive seen situations in class where i feel ... shocked... people.. stir up issues, point fingers, criticise behind ppl's back. i shant point out names, coz i respect these ppl and their privacy, but for those reading it and know who u are, it will sting ur conscience. im bein a little harsh, verbally, but it has been harsh on me, and a friend, as well. cant ppl be abit moe forgiving and understanding, and not criticise or instigate issues? i dun get why ppl get so worked up over some little thing as little as a character flaw. Wouldnt critising reflect more on ur own flaws? no one is perfect. in fact, critising makes u uglier than the person. maybe i havent seen enough of the world. maybe ppl with my character wont survive in the working world, where backstabbing and criticism is what gets u to the top(said by a fren who is no longer in aj). i dun really think so... if the person backstabs me, if it suits his conscience, ill just forget it. no reason to make the person's life a living hell. Im not talking like the issue is still hot, its not, but its not resolved as well. Ppl instigate negative feelings as a whole towards a certain person, and... i dunno things just happen so fast now that u look back. put urself in his shoes man... after hearing things said behind his back, i can feel hurt even if im not the targeted one... put urself in his shoes, if ur so intolerant of a little flaw, ull be wanting to go poly even more. im not saying that the whole class is wrong, there are very nice ppl in our class and everyone can be nice when they want to. Similarly, when the dark sides reveal, it can be ugly. im no longer caring about who started it and what not... a quarrel involves both parties, and it takes twohands to clap. even if its he who started it, being involved in it and pursuing the matter with criticism doesnt make one a better person as well. ive said before, over 1 year, even enemies can become friends. well, now its not anymore about pinpointing. i noe ive just done that in my entry, but tts a little background in case ppl dont know whats going on. it may not be totally right but its wad i gather and think so far. even if the issue is past, now someone is leaving becoz of all this accumulated issues. i noe its not nice to bring up such a sensitive and harsh issue in the fun holidays, well, maybe boring holidays, but i have too before its too late.

so now the pressing issue is, i told sky to try to change, to forget and once the new year starts, take it like fittin into a new class. and thus i beg all of u, plz accept him... character flaws might re-surface again, but, after 1 yr of it, im sure ull be able to adapt to it as well. prevent anymore friends from leaving, plz. no more... no more....
T_T

sad hsien

ncc camp

2004-11-23T01:49:00.000+08:00

ok here goes..my night back at chinese high in ncc annual camp. Firstly when i reached had warm welcomes and greetings... ahhh thats the beauty of prolonged friendships... the greetings are especially warm and tender. I was carrying this huge bag containing mahjong, contact lens, and alot of other thingys... and in the other hand i held a huge piece of cardboard(couldnt find mahjong paper so... oh well :D) yea then i went with two of me ncc mates to eat prata at some place near beauty world. The prata was served in silver plates, and the curry was quite little. Had a HORLICKS GODZILLA drink! WOW it was LOVELY!! a little red juicy sweet cheery lay floating on a sea of thick whipped cream, covering a sunny blob of vanilla ice cream that was especially sticky. the blob of icecream was covered in chocolate powerder, and beneath that was shattered ice and thick lovely horlicks... drank every drop of it... yummmmmmmmmm

Ok played mahjong and 'kop' milo during the camp. haha thats the goody thing about being seniors. and the highlight of the day: wargames!! wahahah seeing those sec1 ppl fighting was like watching a cartoon comedy fighting show. They danced about and posed in stances, LOL. then they said things like 'eh sorry... who start first?' LOLOL. its a game to chiong and be rough all u can!!!! not be gu niang :D yea anw, so funny lar... den they shout and chiong hor, got one time they chiong their own teammates LOOOOL. ok then it was the seniors time to play waahaha. i guai lan... go and play around with them. i went to ask 'eh wheres ur sock?' (the game's supposed to be about pulling the sock off the guys arm). den when the guy replied i pulled it off lol. But the star of the day was none other than the strongest guy in my part, dick lee. wa... that guy now in judo... and he could even kill guys taller and bigger sized than him. It was a rough nite of pulling, dragging, and thrashing about. ahh... den sleeping was a problem as they were all playing mahjong, and some were in the lecture theatre watching new police story, in which i joined in.

there was a problem with the vcd so i tried something and the whole thing restarted to the beginning WTH! i had to SLOW FORWARD it all the way to the point we left off... and GUESS WHAT. AT THAT POINT, IT WAS TIME TO SWITCH CD! I fainted on the spot -_- yea we watched the vcd till 3am! den i couldnt sleep on the chairs in the LT... so hard and uncomfortable... i tried sitting up to sleep... but cannot i would fall to one side. so... bo bian... slept 1 hr in all... woke and played computer in one of the classrooms, with slight body sores, then went home. yea... thats basically all. and i haf a headache now coz once i reached home at 8 plus, i fell asleep till 3pm. so tataz for now zzz

exhausted hsien

boring day...

2004-11-22T16:57:00.000+08:00

wa kao... super boring sia... whole day play maplestory. its real fun lar, really takes up time while u just indulge in mindless killing and enjoy the graphics. i guess i get kick outta such mindless killing games... but there is a catch.. when u level up u get that satisfaction :) and u have to think wad weapons to buy and how to spend ur experience points etc. overall a cute and nice game for bored ppl... its nice ok, even if its for bored ppl :D. im bored.

later still got ncc annual camp. i choose to go back, coz i miss my sec sch and ncc. i haf to forgo 34/04 movie today and my sec4 class gathering! :( well... tonight there will be war games!! and i trained yesterday just to prepare for the rough night today. sigh... im getting sickeningly weak. i feel as though ill faint once i start running... hmm tts basically wad happens when u sit at ur com for 2 months playing and opening ur mouth for food. Stamina... i need it somehow. yux... i noticed this really huge blackhead on me nose and tried to squeeze it out... but it left a scar omg... hope it heals fast.

hmm my sis came back from australia not too long ago, and though this is late news, its counted recent as i just remembered it today, right now, after peeing in the toilet... -_- hmm other than a HUGE bag of sweets she bought, she also bought many cute thingys like cups with air bubbles in them and tweety bird designs printed on the outside. they were really nice... there was also this koala bear stapler!! with the mouth open to fit the stapler inside LOL so cute! then there was this keychain with many different colours of aboriginal sand... so pretty :) there were many other stuff but i didnt really bother to look coz i was playing games -_- sigh..

Days are so boring... chatting on msn... playing games... searching for new games, searching for hacks for games... downloading songs.. wad else to do. go out play lan... everytime i go out till very late... ill feel totally drained, physically, mentally, and ... pocket-moneylly -___- den ill wake up real late in the morning and be some sick lethargic pile of lard. yea... i heard from many friends that they are going to work in the hols.. kao... ive never tried that before and am not about to do so... i dunno why... my pride? or... just plain laziness? or... i enjoy too much le cant bear to walk out into the 'working society' ... whoa abit too serious le... nvm, play comes before work so... yea, me and my escapist mentalities ><

i dunno wad else to say le... i hope there will be more opportunities for the WHOLE class to go out together again, and while big groups tend to make interaction between each and everyone less, it still is a chance to see everyone and the class be a united body again, so yea why not. erm, im totally ignorant of any remedials comin up whatsoever, so ppl, plz remind blur hsien. thx. i guess i just blogged for the sake of keepin me entries up to date... so till next time, and till i think of some new stuff to blog down, tata ;)
blur hsien ><

relations

2004-11-19T21:19:00.000+08:00

ok this is the edited version of my post, TAGBOARD AINT WORKIN! arghz... i need a new board :(
OoOoOooo... this is such a lovey dovey period of time! ppl are gettin into relations real fast and its all so sudden! well, i can accept it of course, but its sorta awkward. hmm... love love love :D some ppl are really courageous to do the asking out thingy... heh, im not that type.. haha i dunno man... after the last time, i not really in the mood to 'look' le :S but ill keep on waitin :) maybe its just the inherent libra nature to sit, watch, observe, and wait :) but yea love is in the air man. Dunno why during this jc period ppl get so romantic easily. Well.. some get into relations juz to be of the 'attached' status, luckily none of the ppl i noe do that :) well, some arent sure of what they really want and whether they really love the other person or not. Some are overly worried, worried that things might not go right, lackin confidence in self. some worry about horoscope clashes and worry about the future. Well, a relation is all in ur hands, for u to steer. no matter what the problem is, both parties can always compromise and accomodate. Well, love transcends all worldly things and materials, and... i dunno. this is gonna be a real short paragraph that im writing coz i really cant grasp such a vast and complex subject, and am lazy to think more. So all those couples out there, best wishes, stay happy, and love each other k? ciao

thinking hsien

I FORGOT!!!!!

2004-11-19T12:32:00.000+08:00

BOOHOOOOOOOOOO i forgot to wake up for remedial today!!!!! i truely wanted to go, and was in the midst of a nice ol' dream when i bounced outta bed and shouted: TODAY GOT REMEDIAL! i looked at the time and saw 11.40, and i was like 'PHEW', still can make it for 1pm remedial!!!!!!!! omg blur sotong me... i switched on me hp and received a msg from youjun saying he not coming, so i replied at 11.50, asking him 'how to sign ur signature' LOLOL. den another msg from yijun came saying 'where are u why u never come?' LOL dats when i opened my inbox and checked the econs timing, and i nearly fell off my chair waaaaaaarghz. the sad part is not being able to see frenzzzz. the happy part is ... well... being able to rot more at home? sianz.. eating a prematurely prepared lunch, consisting of egg, ham, and sausage?! no vege!!! wa liew tts the food i eat at home man... no wonder im ballooning up. today is friday... hmm... SATURDAY MUST GO TRAIN!! anybody who wanna come is welcome. ill be doing intensive!

Ahh yesterday i reached home at 12.30am, coz i played lan from 4pm to 10pm at coronation plaza. LOL during the lan at around 9 plus we rushed down to cold storage and bought LOADS OF SUSHI ALL FOR 4 DOLLARS! half price! but the auntie also quite good, give us all of the REMAINING sushi :D yea... lan was super fun lar with lotsa laughter lol, right kai? ;) and oh yea i tried out maplestory in the lanshop... cool...den i ate dinner outside, and took a bus home with me fren and talked cock all the way. We ate at King Albert Park, and boy we did hilarious things. I folded a straw chain that was super long: it could stretch 3 tables or more, and i carried it around; ppl were lookin lol. we even wanted to try sucking water all the way thru that straw chain, but we figured if we did so, there would be no more water in the cup! hahaha so i went to get 2 cups of free plain water, and wow, they gave me longkang(drain) water. EEEEW one of the cups' water was YELLOW, and it looked like diluted PEE wth!my fren was clever enough to think of lemon tea, but i still didnt dare to drink it... yux... yea so walked to the busstop with fren and playing with the straw... broke it in half gave him, lol... we looked damn childish lar. while at the busstop my straw, which was hanging over my shoulder, poked the face of a girl behind(from macdonalds) and she scolded 'nabei, hit me...' LOLOL, i juz looked at her with sian look den turn around again. and while i was swayin and bouncin about, the straw hit her again! wahahha. she flicked it away again but i bo chap her dis time le lar... not like i purposely wan :D den they muttered something about 'ask him to kiss you' this kinda shit... i couldnt make tail of what they were talking... they finally left and it was good riddance. reached home, bathed, talked to yijun about good news, and proper outfits, den finally fell asleep at 2am!! so tts about my day... for yesterday and early morn of today. -_- teel nexsht time, sheeya. buai buai all the loyal sir'ees and ma'amrees around :D:D (and this is not spellin error, juz... actin cute? lol)

happy hsien ^^

early morning

2004-11-18T09:23:00.000+08:00

yippee! its a bright sunny morning! too bad the blinds are coverin the windows and im only making an assumption... but oh well... the sun does rise in the morn hor? :D:D so... had a dreadful night as i couldnt sleep till maybe 3 or 4am. Just kept turnin around in bed with thoughts floodin my head and thinkin of all kindsa things. One thought was that we havent thanked the teachers for their help thruout this year. yea and i kept sheddin tears as a yawned incessantly. as a result my nose got all blocked. sian... and to worsen things i got a friggin headache! well... i tried all kinds of sleeping positions but didnt work... and i kept on havin to pull my shirt back down again coz when i kept on turnin around it would so irritatingly roll up. arghz. and so puffy eyed me got up for awhile(2 seconds), den lay down again. dis time i shut off all thoughts and tried to do some... meditation? tried to... force myself to sleep? like imagine myself drifting off or wadeva.. cant explain it.. but it sorta worked! before i dozed off i wondered if i shd have tried out the traditional milk method =/

Oh yea before i forget, and in case anyone does, go do the survey/feedback thingy for CDP at IVLE. back to topic.. i watched a recorded movie yesterday, and it was one of the very bestesty cheena movies ive watched so far. its 'casino raiders' acted by andy lau and wang jie. SO TOUCHING man... i cried like dunno how many times... no wonder i teared more easily than usual last night when i was tired. It shows the love of the father for his child, the willingness to cut off his gambling right hand just to save his super cute daughter. wahaha so cute man the little girl... chubby and big eyes. in the beginning she was chained up by some ah ma... so bad :( so she got all defensive and when she was eatin noodles and wang jie(the dad) wanted to clean her mouth, she took the fork and posed defensively with noodles still hanging outta her moutH!!! omg burst out laughing man... yea... and it also shows touching scenes btw andy lau and his lover... how they love each other so much that they sacrifice. Under pursuit by those secret societies, she knocked andy lau out and let him drift off in a boat, leaving herself behind to hold them off, when she already had a broken leg. :'((((( in the end SHE DIED, and the expression on andy lau's face as he turned back and saw her gettin beaten to death just made tears flow uncontrollably. Andy lau got blinded... and this is when perseverance is shown, where even a blind person and a one-hand gambler can come back for revenge, and ultimately win! okie summary over lol... super nice show la.. i wont overwrite this show and 'dong fang bu bai' for sometime man... worth seeing many times. ;)

sianz.. recently got abit of bloggin spirit back.. dunno why. maybe coz the games ive been playin have all lost their novelty. bleahz. any new games to play?!?! i still havent download maplestory coz it takes ages to do so... arghz. and tagboard aint working!!!! i dunno.. for 3 days le. sighzzzz. did facial yesterday and i realised that i cant keep my mouth close when the mask hardens... me mouth will auto open wan coz the mask makes ur whole face so bluudy tight. first u rub ur face with some facial wash that has sediments in it to clean and open the pores, den u wash it off and put on the mask to tighten the pores. cool huh. -_- den u have to wait for it to dryyy, and i went to do some chattin on msn WITHOUT SPECS while waiting. The whole thingy took about 30 - 40 minutes, den i went to bathe straight away to wash it off. haiz, can see im runnin outta topic to talk off le. Later steel got remedial at 1pm!! and yup this time i didnt see the time wrongly, its 1300 hours, 1pm! not 1.30 pm like i saw it last time LOL. cya guys there, ciao

sian hsien

sian!!

2004-11-17T13:10:00.000+08:00

wow econs homework supposed to be done by tmr(thurs) and im still drinking grass jelly and feasting on a huge packet of rice. who cares? its delicious :D anw back to topic, i removed braces yesterday... eeew and the doctor cleaned me up... so pain! :( he did this mould thingy for me so that he could make the retainer... doesnt that make me the retainee?! OH NO :P kk he filled this mould with gooey stuff, den pressed it into my freakin mouth... YUX, the goo almost flowed into my windpipe and i was gagging!!!!! i was praying for the goo to harden faster... blargh nearly choked :( okie everythin's fine and dandy, braces out already :) but THE TEETH HURT?! maybe its coz they were bound in that position for so long, the sudden release would coz some pain... hmm.

Looks in the mirror... oh god... im visably chubbier. good or bad? i dunno i cant judge myself... my eyes always see wrong things. maybe a bowl of icecream and some nuts will help me slim down later while i sit on the sofa and watch tv and probably dose off. yea, slimming programme... -_-

Im runnin low on money yes si'ree!!!! been goin out to lan gaming and whatnot, and have been spending :( wanna watch some movies... argh i dun feel like doin any homework, and nothing really happened coz im at the com the whole day playing eating sleeping. I cant possibly blog about the food i eat or what games i play or what i dreamt of. hmm had an interesting dream last night... :) was quite lovely...anw dreamz arent meant to be said out so yea..

yux ive been waking up as late as 12.30 everyday!! but tts coz i sleep at 2 or 3 am at night -_- im NOT a morning person man... i wake up feeling all puffy and shit!!!!!! and it takes me around 30 minutes to warmup and get into shape. sux... a totally piggy hsien :( when am i gonna move me lazy bum and get to the treadmill :( Now... i havent done facial in AGES and ive gotta do it sometime!!!! aarghz face gettin rough too! noo... lack of moisture, the facial soap im usin leaves my face taught and dry after usin it... not good. pimples! not many but... i guess its the curry and meat that ive been abusing recently. ahh but oh well im glad i recovered from my old sickness a week or two ago. I dont believe in goin to see the doctor, i believe in self recovery coz if u go to see the doc and take too much medication, ur body will be reliant on the medication to get well and tts not good.

had a fun chat with youjun and family last night. talked about our feminine side, at least mine.. and tts coz i spend so mch time in the toilet tidying myself etc ... well i believe a person must be presentable on the outside, as well as on the inside. bein metro aint that bad ba :D yea and i talked with youjun about movies. One great movie was 'xiao qian - a chinese ghost story by tsui hark animations'. oh god that show just ROX, and the longing to watch it hasnt dissipated yet, though ive watched it so many times on recorded tape. too bad i erased the tape for other shows :(:( anyway the storyline is SO GOOD! its so mystical and fairy-tale like, involving romance btw a boy and a ghost! it aint scary, excellent graphics combines romance, emotion, HUMOUR, and action! The ghostbusters were SO FUNNY and cute, esp that beardy round guy and his 'bo ye bo luo mi thingy'. It just makes u feel like u wanna be part of that lovely story, want it to come to life... want to experience that lovely fairytale... *dreamz* . yep tts all for now, boring eh? cant believe i crapped so much. and oh yea, everythin with the family is fine le. tts how quarrels are la, erupt awhile den die down. so tata for now

happy hsien :)

family troubles

2004-11-16T12:45:00.000+08:00

Has it ever occured to you that sometimes we take our parents for granted? Since birth till now, a total of 17 years, we have been in that same family, and throughout these years, quarrels have surely ensued. I dont know about u all, but for me, my parents' characters/horoscopes clash, and though they can be very very nice, accomodating and caring parents, they aren't accomodating towards each other. Why issit moms are always nicer than dads? sigh. Maybe its the way they were brought up, maybe its the harsh kampong conditions last time that moulded them into something that is different from our generation. My mom always would say something about never rushing into marriage, coz once ur in it, the 'ugly sides' reveal. As the child, i can only sit in this two party verbal war and listen. Quarrels have even escalated to mentioning of divorce, and recently ive done pw on rising rates of divorce and thats abit ironic. Only yesterday a huge quarrel ensued btw my mom and dad again, and this time, divorce was mentioned again. Tears just flowed uncontrollably from my eyes as i heard both parties' sobbing and pleading voices... i really could not bear to see a family which has been there for me for 17 years just go apart like this. i mean, if a divorce were happen, a part of the family would be gone, forever, and i cant live on without it. Communication breakdown... a quarrel involves both parties, and in such a rage either party will forget that he or she also has a part to play in the quarrel and that it takes both hands to clap; thus he/she will be blinded by rage and not know what he/she is talking. Sometimes the blame is totally shifted onto the other party, accusing him/her of starting the quarrel. Why cant we just be abit more forgiving. Lets say someone scolds u or says something that provokes u, for a change, we could try not to flare up, and just say in a calm voice 'why u like that... :('. For my parents, its a clash of characters, and to change one's character is hard, but to change the attitude towards each other is easy. If matters are not related to infidelity, then it is very minor, and parents are just blowing the issue up. Why cant everyone just compromise and accomodate? Accomodate each others' flaws, be more tolerant. Flaws viewed from another angle can be uniqueness. Though yes some parents can be real irritating, but just let it burn for awhile and forget it, not keep it in ur heart, buried there, only to be dug up during quarrels to pin down/humiliate the other party. Let it be, forgive and FORGET. the past is history; only if we remember such ugly memories, will we become ugly ourselves, mentally. Such accumulated hatred will only serve to paint another ugly image of the other party, such that everything he/she says is immediately wrong. sometimes people feel inferior, that everything he/she says is wrong, so that person becomes grumpy and moody. Thus we must all try to understand each other, esp in a relation. Why cant a peaceful family exist. Even enemies would have become friends in a period of 17 years, what more a family.

My mom told me that in US, people get divorced like there's no tomorrow. These people never really spare a thought for their partners or themselves. They never even bother to make an effort to better the marriage. They treat marriage as a material thing, that can be thrown away as and when they wish. Some people treat is as a threat, that whenever their partners dont behave well, they divorce. Some people even purposely get divorced just to get the money. What is this man... thats totally debasing the sanctity of marriage and love. The vows made before the institution of marriage mentions that 'be loyal to each other till death do us apart'. Such a vow should be kept, and i believe if u truly love a person, u wouldnt bear to hurt him/her or break up the relation. The reason a couple comes together is to spend time with each other, accompanying each other till ripe old age, not quarrel all the way and break up the marriage. Sigh... so yea, between tears and sobs, i reasoned with my parents from a third party view, and made a firm stand that i did not want divorce. It was really sad... :'( im close to crying again while typing this, coz it pains me to see a family like this. till next time

sad hsienz

aye aye ma'am

2004-11-14T21:33:00.000+08:00

Yo everyone! hsien is back!!!!!!! ;)*bounces about* :D:D to all loyalists, sorry for the looooooong pause, coz i was deeply engrossed in a new game called MU ONLINE :D but ppl have been asking me to update me blog, so yes siree! here i am with a new post! haha after so long nvr type or blog, all the ah beng language starting to come out sia... singlish! :P >_<> Isnt it ironic, when sch is on everyone wants hols, when hols come ppl want sch! for me its coz i wanna see my friends! just seeing them is enough for me... :)

anyway, ive been playing games and games and games. And i watched 'DONG FANG BU BAI' last night... really nice show... ive always been a fan of chinese movies, especially this kinda 'wu xia xiao shuo' :) the storyline is so nice, and involves romance and action... the movie was especially intricate and fast paced, and i really marvelled at the way it was developed. I watched the show all the way till 1am and i did not find a moment boring. Hmm.. games... im basically playing online rpgs or mmorpgs now... coz one thing it takes up time, another is that such games are so fascinating... i can even forgo chatting online for such games. :D not to mention games like ragnarok online and maplestory are soooo cute! those anime round faces with big innocent sparkly eyes!!! EEEEE cant stand cute things man.. :D:D yea and basically ive been sitting on the chair at me com, eating and playing. :D:D yea... growing fat fat heex. I just went to train yesterday and surprisingly i can still keep my 9min pace for 2.4... i dunno... maybe its all to do with a person's weight? yea, trained at the gym with yijun den we went swimming! taught yijun how to swim breast stroke... so fun! yijun forgot to bring goggles so when he rose to take breaths he was like looking around with eyes closed, and that struggling face was like so funny. Had loads of laughter. He was a fast learner and yea... we also played 'holding our breath' competition. I trained in this before so i could hold rather long. I also practiced swimming '1 breadth without breathing' thingy, coz as i said this improves stamina ALOT! LOL i almost forgot the most funny part. Before we entered the pool... GOSH IT WAS SO COLD! once my feet touched the water, IT FROZE! so me and yijun were like hopping about in undies... not daring to enter the pool! so first we dipped our legs in... and the shocking cold numbed us man... whoa... we tried using our hands to spread water across our bodies and apparently it got less cold. so me and my 'mind over body'thingy made me jump into the pool! WOW i curled up inside the pool man. i hate that feeling lol.yea the only way to get less cold is to keep swimming! and after such a long period of not swimming butterfly style, i was surprised i could do 3/4 laps.. -_- yea and i found my new-liked style: backstroke! :D Heh, there's also a recent relation sprouting up :D youjun youjun :) well, relations should be kept private as far as i concern, thus ill leave u all in suspense :D hmm... love and all its glory... the most intangible thing can sometimes cause the most pain... at this age we can only lose ourselves in that vast ocean of love... floundering about in uncertainty. I wanted to write a full-length essay on 'love' about a month ago, but never really got down to it coz there were too many things to cover. im plain lazy too :D oh yea there was this website yjun introduced me to, its real good coz it tells ur personality. I was shocked, 90%of it was true. Im ISFP: introverted, and dunno wad... u all see for urselves :) take this test: http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp
http://www.personalitypage.com/ and this site tells u ur personality
its real fun to get to noe urself better - as yijun said the journey of self discovery! wahaha

yea, so while the remedials in the holidays give us more chance to see each other again, ill be back at me com playing :D hmm, i hope everyone in 34/04 stays ;) so that we can have more fun and laughter in a brand new year. it wont be long, thus we should cherish our time left together. Let the holidays - the long absence of each others' company, intensify that 34/04 bond, and the longing to see each other again. Friendship is unbroken by time and distance, thus i hereby announce, that u have a friend in me. :) cya guys ard, u rock, take care, ciao

hsien rock on

thou has come too far to let go..

2004-10-27T21:54:00.000+08:00

Ok quite a few issues have happened recently. First, my Ez link card got confiscated by the OM coz i walked right into him with my long hair, 2nd the discovery that Free Access Room 213 has warcraft 3, 3rd the numerous AVA commitments that have agitated me a little, 4th Shawn leaving AJC, and 5th, Vanessa's decision to go poly, and 6th the TABOO game. Plz read to the end.

The first issue confirms the OM's stupidity. He confiscated my ez link, and told me to see him the next day. I didnt, and it dragged to the next week. I was drinking milo while walking to LT3, and bumped into that old man again, and he asked 'boy gimme ur card'(the same thing he said, and always says... his vocab sux..) AND HIS MEMORY TOO! LOL i laughed right in his face and said 'i gave u already' :P Then he asked 'when are u supposed to see me?' (it was supposed to be the next day after he caught me but he forgot apparently), so i said 'today lor' wahahha damn funny. Anyway he asked me to cut again! and that was when i decided using coins to take bus -_- wadeva, i dun like short hair.. i look weird in it.

WOWOW which computer genius/genuises installed warcraft 3 on the pc's, but that sure rox man. Every break i would rush with sky, yijun to play it! and i even ponned 2 lessons to play man... SHHH :D I am addicted to spider solitaire!!! ITS SO FUN AND IT MAKES U THINK!! lovely strategy/thinking game, i even played it till late in the night.

AVA is a slack cca, but u get to slack till very late in school being involved in events... a specific example: today, in the morning, i had samba drums. Now this event probably made me angry for the first time in AJC. I helped set up the equipment in the band room, and went out to play chess with qinxue. Gideon rox, he skipped his poetry workshop when the instructor told the ppl to stand up and close their eyes wahahha. So we were there playing chess, and few teachers questioned us, but we easily got away with the fact that we were AVA ppl. Then this teacher came along, and kept pressing us, finding faults PURPOSELY, relentless in arguing and proving us wrong, just for the sake of arguing, so i niaoed her back, and she got pissed. Naturally under such oppressive and insulting conditions, one's face would turn black, and mine did, and she wasnt happy about that... (isnt it my face? well..teachers haf the right man..) and so there went the principal threat or wadeva... sure go tell him my face turned black..

Ok here's a big issue: Shawn leaving AJC and the whole thing about attendance. Yes Shawn definitely has the benifit of doubt like Georgia pointed out, and i believe he has his reasons, for noone would want to skip school with 34/04 around :D But yet again, nothing can be known if he doesnt really mention the real reason. Yea some ppl's immune system are weak, and they fall ill, so that cannot be blamed. But apparently the school rules seem to restrict an overload of MCs/parents letters. Shawn was on the top for term 3 and 4, with 16 absences, next was sky, with 8, then dwayne with 6 and vanessa with 5. I believe that everyone can come to school, its all a matter of endurance, and the will to push urself. If such a will is present, no sickness can stop u. yes i agree school can be boring sometimes, and its not like i totally dont get sick, but i still come, coz there are friends there, and pw group might need me... other than that, i juz adopt a positive thinking and yea.. dunno how to further say it, but other than exercising more and taking multi vitamins, lets all improve together :D

continuing from just now, which i deviated from the original point of shawn leaving AJC, i believe that its really really sad. First Yiting, Kay Yin. Then Cindy, Hwee sian. Next Eric who decided wrongly, and regretted. who else? i simply cant remember... our class is truely unique... now its shawn.. sigh. I wont say that he is angelic, everyone has his/her bad points, but he is a good friend of mine (at least i treat him as one :) ), and ill always remember him, as part of 34/04, as how friends should really be, unbroken by time and distance. Shawn, its gonna be real tough for u as the memories flood back, good or bad. But AJC will definitely leave a mark in ur life, for u to look back upon(we can always go train sometime :) ) The class will miss u... sigh.. its tragic that it has come down to this, but if u feel its a load off ur heart, i respect ur decision... farewell friend.. :'(

Vanessa!! Going to poly?! oh god if ur reading this PLZ re-consider. first, a true-life example is right in front of ur eyes: ERIC! he decided to go poly coz the routine and stresses of study life in AJ were too much, and he though he could find better, more friendly ppl in poly, and that the stress would be less. Though both haf their goods/bads, im in favour of JC, and i hope my thoughts can influence urs. Firstly, feedback from eric is that poly ppl arent of that 'intellectual level', and he finds it hard to communicate with them. This could be true, but there are definitely those bright sparks inside. The ppl are mostly 'ah bengs' who arent very nice... aside from that, u'll have to make new friends again! It isnt easy fitting into a new environment again and getting ppl to noe u as they do now... and u might never know what kinda ppl u will meet.. true if u dont explore, ull never meet new friends, but all the alienation and loneliness stuff might arise again, and the settling into a class isnt easy too. Second, Poly is not an easier route. Project work is stressful, and on top of that there are numerous tests as well, and lessons can drag till very very late, with many breaks - waste of time. True, the wearing of home clothes thing is cool, but the disadvantages far outweight that. 3Rd, u have found such a lovely class: 3404, a most unique and special class which is ever so lively, encouraging, understanding, caring and joyous, a united class of friendship,surely u wouldnt bear to leave it, and AJC, where all ur dear friends are! That feeling is like flesh being torn from you, and ERIC sure felt that. He wailed 'hsien why didnt u lock me up and stop me!?' he realised that AJ is his true home where all his friends reside, and he really regretted his decision. Another thing: track and training, yea, on ur own u wouldnt get the motivation to train, thus track is like a compulsory training so... yea.

But yet u may argue that if ur happy, why not. yea, eric said that too, and i told him to 'pursue his dreams, and if it makes u happy, carry on'. Maybe its all in the decisiveness.. maybe he couldnt make up his mind... i dunno about u vanessa, but ... if its for happiness.. i cannot refute that point coz happiness is everything to a person. What makes u happy keeps u alive, and gets u going to greater heights. But it definitely will be a great impact to all ur friends, and yes tears will be shed. So wadeva u do, plz re-consider. Words typed out leave deeper impressions, and i hope this can leave u contemplating, and making a real decision. haha given ur command of language and intellect, u would definitely score in mass comm, yea... but choose wisely... :)

Ok the new game called TABOO, introduced by our GP teacher Ms Low, is damn fun haha. A game of guessing words through another's description, in which the describer cannot use certain words similar to the actual word to be guessed. Yea.. thought provoking, and through that many geniuses were revealed... like Mark, Gideon, and Dwayne who have great knowledge of the outside world. Ppl describe things differently too and its quite interesting to note. Yes i noe i love to gesture lol... haha vanessa was funny man... singing songs! anw.. mark and his impersonation of George Bush was great... haha a real entertainer... :) yup... ive blogged enough... its a super long entry, longest/2nd longest since that 'friends' post i made ages ago. As with this post, it addresses some important things, so plz take ur time to read, and enjoy.
Rock on forever 34/04, love everyone.

Ok here goes :D

2004-10-24T01:07:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!!!! Today was a MEMORABLE day and i just had to blog about it. Today we had BBQ at my place!! It was sooo fun, and so many things happened. Ill attempt to recall everything in order of timeframe.

Ok after that bornig pw from 8am to 1pm, and after sneaking away to have breakfast at NYP with my pw group, we left for home. Saw ms low sometime during pw, and she was all dressed up ready to go out i think lol. I rested till 3pm when i met dwayne, gayle, aiping, and sky to buy stuff. Bought all the utensils and food including marshmallows! :D There was alot of food, and Denise arrived while we were buying food, wearing a cool dress with shiny things around the shirt-lines. Cool fashion ;) Gideon was there with Yijun also. After carrying the stuff to me house, we started preparing, and i was like continuously running up and down from my house, wearing my shoes, taking it off again. Many ppl had to use the toilet, and some came to see the house :D Yea showed ppl ard, and showed aipnig, gayle etc to the toilets while sky, yijun, youjun played jedi knights 2 in the air-con room. It was so fun lor. Oh yea and thanks dwayne and whoever who bought that ferraro rocher for me/my parents, we appreciate it alot :)

And so ppl came one by one, and yuying arrived in cab with many things like bee hoon etc. The barbecue started not long after at 7.10 pm when the lights were on. We had chicken wings, sausages, marshmallows, satay, bee hoon, rice dumplings etc. There was alot of drinks, but no ice!!argh my fault i forgot to tell Jasper, was too busy rushing about. Took several pictures. Eric came too. We had beer drinking competitions, and crazy talk about condoms! omg lol.. i cant believe i drank beer... vanessa said one bottle equals 3 bowls of rice!!! i drank about a bottle.. but nothing leh... haha dunno. oh man... i ate alot of 'shit' today, and am sure to put on weight... weird thing is i looked much thinner/haggard after running about today... so tired.

Yea and there was the 'push-ppl-into-swimming-pool' game, where gayle, vanessa, and yuying got wet. Yuying and Vanessa swam for awhile b4 the guard came and juz gave a little talk about proper attire. No worries guys, the guard was friendly, and no trouble caused at all :) So yea i wanted to swim too but shy ... haha. Visited the gym and everyone had some fun, when vanessa discovered her ankle was bleeding.. sometimes u get a cut and dont notice it... tts how the mind can mask pain when we're having fun :)

Eric and Ms Ng came!! we had so much fun, and eric was full of tales as usual... seeing everyone together having so much fun juz made me so happy, and i tried to make everyone happy, and thus everyone is happy!!! lol ... yea it's real fun juz being a class and talking cock... class unity! some ppl were eating and some were barbecuing, but i tried to keep those barbecueing company so they would not feel alone... One shd never walk alone when friends are around... probably tts why i was so busy rushing about today...

Almost everyone came up to me house, and Mark's arrival was the finale. He sang SO MANY songs(his memory of songs rox) and his singing ROX! WOW my mom and dad were full of praise, and even my sis took her hat off to him, saying that 'ppl who can play and sing are very talented'. heh, mark u shd join singapore idol! ur better than christopher lee :P Everyone was enthralled by mark and his lovely singing, and eric was taking pics with us. Sky was in the room playing jedi knights 2. and this was the time when Ms Ng came, and Georgia too. I din really noe wad happened downstairs coz we were all upstairs... so if anyone missed out on any fun, sorry :( The scenary at night is especially spectacular with those underwater lights, and building lights against a dark starry sky, illuminated by the glowing green of the water. luckily everyone promoted, so we can enjoy more of such times together next time!! :) Some ppl had to go early, and jieyi was the first to go, and it was raining, so i accompanied her out to the busstop. yea then afterthat it was packing up time, which was rather messy, and me mom came down to help. Thanks guys for helping, and helping to make this bbq a success :) hope u all enjoyed it... oh ya threw away alot of food.. sobs could have fed hungry children :( yea those that could be salvaged i took home, and yea.. im tired and aching lol. AND HUNGRY! (not tt i din eat, i juz wasted too much energy)

I had alot of fun today, and i hope everyone had. Today was great fun, and definitely will be one of my memorable times, and i hope i made it one for all of u too :) Friends forever man, 34/04 is really one unique, hell of a class!!! ROX! stay happy everyone, haf a good rest, those watching midnight movie dun get too tired or anyhow do stuff! lol. cya ard on monday, OH NO HISTORY HOMEWORK! wahaha we haf excuse :P (oh too drunk~~~) haha kk im laming... i go see tv and think about wad happened today le... cant sleep yet though im tired, coz so many things happened today.. OH YA, my mom commented that the class very nice/polite! haha :P OH NO I HAVEN CUT HAIR!!! NOOO lim kok wee's gonna lock me in school and cut hair for 2 days... wahahha im lame. kk nitez everyone, cya ard, rock on ;)

life...inspiration..

2004-10-13T21:49:00.000+08:00

*stretches* ... i just woke up from a long nap... and am feeling rather refreshed, with new inspiration to blog! Its after the promos, and the initial whoopie and bouncing about has almost worn away... now all thats left is boredom. Sitting in front of your com the whole day just leads you to question your presence in life and its intended course - what are we here for, what is our purpose? I go to school solely to see my friends and be with them, friends are what keep me alive and draw me to this lovely school! But aside from that, something seems amiss as i wander in the school, staring into blankness and wondering what life will bring next. Inspiration... to do what? I just read a friend's blog, and i cant help but think about 'the desire to win'

Our life is about constantly improving ourself, be it academic or social excellence. Competition is an essential tool, and some people get that thrill out of beating a worthy opponent and winning :) But some take it to the extent that it affects their life when they lack such a desireable feeling. Well in response to this, i feel that we should compete only when necessary, other than that, we should run together alongside our friends, never overtaking them, always by their side, just like how we run together in 2.4 Friends are what keep you alive, and without friends, you might not even get a feeling of competition, so yea we should all be competitive, but in a healthy way, and take it in a positive light that 'at least ur having fun with ur dear friends :)

Dramatisation of life... emotionally sensitive people tend to dramatise their feelings, meaning exaggerate it such that it affects their mental health, and they are over cautious or sensitive to certain issues. I think we should all live our lives happily, and try to be content with what we have right now. lets say we haf an injury, we should think positive that it will be healed soon, and not be sad over how we might lose ability to walk. Psychologically, if we keep on thinking that way, it might really come true as we're in a constant state of depression - so why put urself in such misery, when we can just think happy thoughts all the time? Sometimes we imagine things, and let the 'green-eyed monster' take control of things. Jealousy can mould vision into a distorted one, and it can make us someone we're not. 'a horned man's a monster and a beast' It can induce feelings of hatred, loss, and helplessness, leading to possesiveness, transforming u into someone so scary that u cannot recognise urself. I think this is all up to the individual... everyone is different and unique, and jealousy is just part of this unique feature. But we should not let it distort our vision and over imagine things that are not actually happening. Such feelings of loss and jealousy can eventually lead to, worse come to worst, insanity.

A fren quoted:
dun leave me hanging on a thread, either cut me loose or pull me up. This is really thought provoking.. and it involves the thought about friendship - in this case i would always pull my friend up. Sometimes people do things without knowing they hurt you, and sometimes we just gotta learn to accept that, and stomach it. I dont think people really mean it when they hurt you... probably just their character. And as long as u noe someone, even if its an acquaintance, there will always be care for that person no matter what. U will not die unnoticed; when u come into this world ur crying and everyone is smiling - as long as there are friends by ur side, u will leave this place smiling, with everyone else crying. Friends are not easy to come by, and i believe everyone cherishes friendship too :) Some choose not to express their feelings, some choose to write them out, but its all the same, we all care for our friends. Sigh... its getting rather borin nowadays with PW the bore of the century. Anyway, that aside, 34/04 still rox man... its one funky class yea. :)

I just HAD to blog about today

2004-10-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

Today rox!! I just have to blog about it coz there were so many nice events today. Ok first was pw at 8.30am in the MORNING at Orchard MRT coz Georgia had to work. I reached there on the dot, and the venue was changed to Far East Plaza - i din noe where that was! haha den Georgia called me and directed me all the way! she was a good guide haha, i reached in no time - thanks gg! Ate the breakfast set at Yakun Kaya, den talked crap while playing with Mark's tennis ball! OH MAN that tennis ball was the highlight of my day - played with it non stop thruout the whole day. Our pw actual discussion only commenced and lasted for about 15 minutes, before which we were listening to interesting tales of Georgia :) Anyway we just allocated stuff and rushed off for shopping! Stupid pw can wait man. It was so fun shopping, and playing with the tennis ball! It rolled onto the road twice and got rolled over by a car, heng nvr explode! :D Anyway we went into this branded shop, and i was like squatting down and playing the ball... ppl were staring lol. But i was having fun! :P ya it was fo fun walking about and talking cock. AND TODAY, I TOOK MY FIRST NEO PRINT!! Omg so fun! woowow, and the pics were so cute! georgia just had to add that 'shit' on me head, and those bunny ears... anyway i enjoyed it and am gonna take more next time :)

Ok on the journey home with mark, we talked alot of things, yea and they were quite philosophical. Had a nice talk with a good friend :) we must always cherish friends around us! :) when i reached home i realised i had to go out with me 'family' at 4.30! i forgot about the time and played pokemon, den got a shock when it was 4.10 and i was still at home. I rushed there, only to find out the movie started at 7.05 -_____-. It was one of the longest waits ever. We walked around the whole of Plaza Sing looking at all the shops and doing shopping. Went to see books also. When the movie finally started... i enjoyed EVERY PART OF IT - JACKIE CHAN NEW POLICE STORY ROX!!! OMG! I CRIED!! The movie combined humor(lots of it... damn funny laff till sides ached), emotion, and lotsa ACTION! it also imcorporated thought provoking values like how computer games can lead to crimes, and how parents use money to breach the gap between love and material. Many more, a definite must watch. So the day ended like that, took the train home and met some friends on the way. Had a long talk with joanne, and yea that was about it. OH YA! On the way back in my bus, I REALISED I NEVER ZIP MY PANTS EVER SINCE AFTER THE MOVIE IN THE TOILET!! Why do i keep on forgetting! its not the first time in this week already omg. had a bawl of laughter over it. Took off my sunglasses, coz it was too dark le haha. so tired. go slack le
Tmr still got pw sian... but good thing is can meet friends again. :)

updated again

2004-10-08T23:06:00.000+08:00

Ok guys many many things happened since the last time i blogged. Well, in fact not so many lar. Took history and lit papers. Quite ok... hope can pass. Well, my last minute work was definitely dam exhaustive. I feel like a panda bear. Slept everynight at 4am sustaining myself with coffee. Sian, but ITS OVER!!! Damn happy, can hop about like mad :S Oh ya i loved the lit poems. The one about the neighbour, its so nice and thought provoking, especially when it concerns stuff like confinement and solitude, things to do with psychology... so mysterious and facinating :)

Then came the tragedy of unfILLED question papers- Econs today! I din study at all... exams was over yesterday for me... so yea basically stoned or slept, and the teachers were like staring when i only handed up two pages of nonsense! oh man... so screwed. Anyway... hmm, i 'pia'ed computer games before the econs test man... so fun to have freedom again! freedom for sleep, and no stress at all! SO HAPPY ARGHZ. but the festive season often means not being able to see friends again... sigh, then boredom sets in, so 34/04, hope to see u in the hols! :)

Went out today, saw the exorcist - it was COOL, with violence and anti-christ thingys, but thats not the cool part, in fact it was gross. The cool part is the effects and the storyline. Its not a lousy show, and is quite nice. Had quite some fun today. I wore those sunglasses and a new white shirt... yea everything seemed so dark under those glasses man. i even wore it at night, and ppl were staring... i forgot its 'SUN'glasses -_-. Then went to eat and talk cock with Gideon, Mark, Jasper. Damn fun lar, Gideon treated us to some drinks and food, so nice of him. Yea we also ate dinner at Yoshi. Other ppl who went are Denise, Yuying, and her friend. Yep had a blast today, and am exhausted. Two friends birthdays both on 7th and 8th October, so happy birthday to these guys. In the meantime, ill go slack already. Blogging sorta lost its taste after the exams.. maybe write too much le. Anyways, bb till next time

Finally updated

2004-10-05T15:58:00.000+08:00

Sian! its the time of the promos, and ive been too busy to blog since friday. But let me just share a few nice things that happened. On Saturday it was my birthday and i went out with me 'family' for celebration! They bought me this cute little dalmation with my name tag round it! So cute man, thanks a bunch i loved it. Then we had lunch at pastamania and talked alot of cock. The beef bolongse (or how u spell it) was damn nice, and i added like half the can of cheese inside *slurrrpz* i even ate the cheese on its own. Oh ya then yijun told me about the biggest security camera he had ever seen, which was enclosed in a round black ball, and we kept laughing. After that we went to study at woodlands library. Saw Dehai and the rest from tchs, and we chatted awhile. Oh ya before going into the library we went on a shopping hunt and i bought two packets of sweets - gonna be fat in no time - stupid promos :S anyway i ate all the sweets up without and water, and was almost dying of thirst, so i drank chocolate milkshake! fats!! oh man, but it sure tasted good. Then we sat at the stage area and studied, but i couldnt concentrate, and had to keep reading what i read two lines before -_- Finally went home and that ended the wonderful birthday.

More mugging to do... im giving up econs, as im gonna fail the essay on monday. GP was SUCKY, i think my AQ write out of point - got too engrossed in what i was writing... narrative thingy. Sighz... retained after all. Then i pia history till very late, and drank super thick home-brewed coffee with milk at 11am, and studied til 4am. Sigh... it helped... the history test today went quite well as all that i studied came out. :) tmr is lit, gotta rush home le. Vanessa just returned me my Jude notes, and ive gotta rush home to study Othello le. till next time, ill be back with more experiences in J1 :P:P

love brings wealth and happiness: edit!

2004-10-01T09:54:00.000+08:00

i read this email from yijun talking about a story concerning love, wealth, and happiness visiting the home of a family. If u invited wealth, which symbolizes greed, then happiness and love will leave. But if love is welcomed, happiness and wealth will automatically follow, as love spreads happiness and brings wealth whereever it goes. Thus the rule - spread love to everyone around you, and aceept love for its beauty.

Wealth is but a material gain that can invite greed. Greed is a very bad quality which can possess and corrupt u - zounds! Obsession with wealth can lead to unscrupulous means being adopted to achieve it, and through such means comes the sacrifice of friends, love, and happiness. Why put urself in such a miserable state? erm... bell ring. i update this post later at home around 6pm -_- ciaoz

ok this is the additional update on what happened in the 2nd half of school. After econs lecture i basically slacked around in school, then ate abit of lunch and went to find Ms Lim about Lit. Had quite a nice talk, though not very helpful tips... Next up history remedial was postponed to 1.30! so i went to canteen to walk walk again and saw Mr Trevor. Talked alot with him about history, about SEA. Then it was history remedial... i was SO tired, and my eyes were drying out, not to mention the headache i got from sleeping late last night sighz. Vanessa originally wanted to run, but then she wanted to study instead, so i didnt run too. man i havent been training in weeks! and im that type who deteriorates RAPIDLY if he doesnt train regularly :(

The history lesson was about globalisation and origins of cold war. The titles seem easy, but the questions ms ng posed sent us 'huh-ing'. i was so stone in the remedial... its the headache man... it just numbed me up. Oh ya during econs lecture, though i didnt feel very cold, i got a shock when i looked at my finger nails... they were BLACKISH PURPLE! i didnt feel any numbness or pain... but anyway yea history ended at 4.40 sumthing, and the group engaged in a talk about Catholics with Ms Ng. I slept... didnt really noe what was going on... so dreamy and tired. But i did pop some jokes like when ms ng said 'i hope u all can see the light', i flashed the lanturn light -_- Another memorable event is the singing of the birthday song today, and i was like melting and hopping about in joy. So grateful, thanks 34/04! and oh ya it is children's day! Sweets were given out :) OH YA, there's another person who hates veges other than vanessa! Ms ng!! she said too much veges drives u crazy?! and she hated everything about it... i thought it was meant to be healthy... oh man :S anyway, take care all me friends, i go rest le. bbz

Life behind a mask

2004-10-01T09:34:00.000+08:00

After 2 history lessons in LT4, im here at free access room typing this. Me and yijun came up with this topic... which involves most of us in our current lives. Most of us are one person now and a different person at home - thus the issue of living behind a mask.

Every person has his/her unique qualities and characteristics, but only certain characters/qualities can be revealed to the social world in order for acceptance and understanding. Some of us require understanding and acceptance so much that we do stuff to gain attention and admiration. This is, an indirect case of living behind a mask. I think this term means that u become someone that ur not in order to go along with the norm. Its like wearing a mask, where u become a totally, unrecogniseable person, who behaves contrary to his true self. Such behaviour may be due to wanting to cover the bad points and not let it surface. Such doing will only intensify that feeling when he/she reaches home, where the natural characteristics kick in. Some people have a very strong sense of leadership, and want to be control/in the limelight. Perhaps their true self contains internal instability and fickleness, or they are too sensitive and perplexed by the slightest emotions that they feel lost and troubled at the slightest things - thus they need understanding and acceptance. Masks 'mask' identity, and thus sometimes its really hard to tell when a person is not his true self. Some people may remain under that mask forever and u can never tell it... perhaps... he remains under this mask for so long that it becomes his natural self. Thus it is rather dangerous to judge a book by its cover or wad not. Some ppl also behave differently in groups, as they get hyper and want to show off, mostly in the case of gangs, which is why gangfights are so common in modern day life. Group behaviour instigates rebellious feelings and to prove oneself, one will go against his values to follow the norm. Another indirect way of living behind a mask.

A person's true self is really unfathomable. It may be so well hidden, yet sensitive people who are sharp enough can see that hidden personality revealing itself through hidden meaning. A group attention seeker can really be different in real person. People arent what they seem in groups, and some people arent what they seem in real person... confusing :S Ever heard the saying 'ur whole life is a lie' - some people live that kinda life, and they are constantly lying to themselves of their true self. Some people behave rowdily and act eccentric, but in real life they are actually very nice and caring. I have few such friends in Tchs, and yea, u must really noe a person in order to get under that mask. This comes to the point of appreciation of special uniqueness in a person. People should just be what they are and not live a mirrored life. As such, the image will be distorted and they will have split personalities, which is very confounding and can lead to depression/ feeling lost. Such people dont know where to start, dont know where to be left off, dont know where they stand, thus they need constant understanding and acceptance to feel secure. Different people have different likings/wants, and some just like feeling wanted and admired. hmm im sure theres more to life behind a mask, but so far this is all i can think of... til i expound more on it, next post :P

Today ends quite early, as there are twot math lessons after econs. :S sian got history remedial again, but yet i should be quite positive as its gonna be a ball of a time :D anywayz, til the next half of school, tata

2nd half of school: Appreciation

2004-09-30T18:15:00.000+08:00

The 2nd half of the school is a replica of the 2nd half of school yesterday... at least... the part about the history remedial is :D Before that i went to have lunch with yijun, youjun, joanne, and qinxue - our big family! we went nyp, and i was playing my power ranger lanturn as usual and ppl were staring lol :P Ate fries, apple pie, and drank coffee mocha which initially was so bitter coz i forgot to 'see' the 'HUGE' tin of sugar right by the counter. I drank the coffee with a straw... yea initially it burn my lips :( Oh ya.. i added loads of sugar, in the end too sweet boohoo :X Blur like sotong :D:P Had alot of laughs at nyp, den finally returned to AJ and played around with Gideon's Doraemon/'i love you' little egg thingy.

History was at some room at blk 2. This time Yuying, Maryam, me, youjun, Gideon, Mark, Jasper and Dwayne were present. What else to say, but hilarious?! Gideon and Dwayne leh! Dwayne is the sort who says a few words which can REALLY tickle those funny bones. It was SO funny man... in fact, too much funny stuff, so much so that i forgot what happened! how to blog... :( I asked alot of questions today! dunno why, but globalisation of cold war was quite fun :D Ms Ng was talking about the depth of knowledge not being there and the difficulties of scoring... and funny jokes were created in the process. The remedial group rox man... i wanna haf it everyday lol. M&Ms were given out today! but i didnt eat any coz i consumed too much sugar liao.

Now for the major part that im gonna write: appreciation. I was utterly SHOCKED and TOUCHED(emotionally, not physically :P:P) by Gideon when he said 'i dun think im coming tmr, so i wish u happy bdae first hsienjun'. i was like !!! u remembered!! Nearly melted on the spot when the other ppl serenaded a birthday song! The feeling of being accepted and liked in a class where unity and lovely friendship are supposed to exist cannot be described, but i will try to describe it now.

U just get that feeling of warmth and security, and at that moment, u feel so secure and trusted, trusted by others as a friend, and cherished in the process. Ur heart just melts at such stuff man.. Birthdays come only once in a year. It is time for friends to show they really care and appreciate the special u which blends into 34/04 to make it a united, harmonious, and fun-loving entity! Everyone is equal and cherished in our class, and such is how friendship should be! It is the thought that counts, and im really touched that such a thought surfaced today. Thats why i always try to make it a point to buy bdae cards for friends' birthdays (my lousy memory has to be constantly refreshed of the date though paiseh :S); though not much, i hope my little thought can make them feel secure that there is a friend in me, as there is in everyone of 34/04. Such a special occassion where u enter the world crying can actually end up in u smiling when it is celebrated :D i dunno how to further describe this man... but one thing is for sure: THANK YOU 34/04! I REALLY cherish our friendship though im not that bold/open to say it out in person coz i shy haha, but its true, i REALLY cherish such small little things and appreciate it alot. I hope my actions can show my appreciation.. :) Thanks to those who warmed my heart today, and thanks to everyone haha. Thats how happiness and friendly love is radiated, and thats how it makes a person, as well as every other person around you, happy! Happy for a common cause, happy because its a time where someone, a part of this class, is supposed to be happy as well... i noe this sounds abit mushy... but yea this is what i am :D Everyone jia you k, gd luckz. btw if you guys dunno me bdae, i came into this world on 2 oct 1987 lol

Today really made my day... i didnt even mind walking in the rain with maryam even though i had an umbrella. If a friend walks in the rain, as a friend, it is only right to walk thru it together(tong2 gan1 gong4 ku3 - means share thick and thin together)(the umbrella was too small for 2 ppl :S). so yea.. talked abit about fixing pc and spyware, and she left to take her bus. Yea... till tmr brings new stuff and laughs, and new toys/lanturns, and not to mention, *hint hints*, ill cya all ard! Take care! Love this class man. rock on-

First half of school

2004-09-30T10:28:00.000+08:00

Started with me in the Ava room in the staff room when there was no assembly... sighz. Seems like the school really protects the students' welfare - lightning strikes in such an open AJ square wouldnt be uncommon... esp if there are no trees around. But i seriously didnt see anything wrong with today morning's weather except for the sky being a teeny bit less blue than usual, which is always the case in mornings -_- Anyways it did drizzle slightly later on... but yea.

I brought my power ranger lanturn! And Gideon brought the cute egg-shaped purple thingy with a face on it, from Burger King, which made a cute sound: 'i love you, i love you!' on contact. So cute larz... oh man. Slacked at LT5 with yijun and youjun and we talked lame stuff including study. Was playing ard with the visualizer when Ms Ng came in lol. Lessons started on Globalisation of the Cold War and as usual, it was quite beneficial and good. Ms Ng is really a good teacher :)

Next up is GP at room 226. I was playing the lanturn song all the way lol. Too bad aiping didnt bring the dragon lanturn today if not can fight already! :P Today is the last GP lesson due to promos... and we got to see Ms Low for the last time. Boy was the class relieved; it was heaven compared to Ms Usha or worse, Ms Kheng... not that i have anything against them but they are less-liked compared to Ms Low. Well lessons were fun, and we did some analysis of AQ, with the terms 'SPERM', 'TIE', and 'PEE' being mentioned. Sexual connotations as usual XD too bad shawn wasnt there to rub the board! LOL anyway as a farewell gift, we played songs on the lanturn and serenaded 'i love you, i love you!' It was abit sad... but yet the class made it so happy and joyous, and we had many funny jokes from Gideon as well. I must really state that it was LOVELY and MOST ENJOYABLE having Ms Low's lessons, as with Ms Ng. Both are such helpful, kind, and caring teachers! Esp Ms Low who doesnt scold at all and is so nice and laughable. Both teachers really mix well with the class and we have a ball of a time as if we're friends. Yep, will really miss them :( Having break now, left the power ranger in the council room with Dwayne. Dino! dun hurt me ranger! wahahaha kidding :P

Oh ya Ee ling Brought Starbursts, very nice of her to distribute to everyone. They rock, with that sour taste to perk u up. Hmm... maybe i should buy a packet of 'kopiko' and share it too... heh. Sharing and caring is what friends do! Then during the GP lesson, we discussed about teachers again. There just wasnt the appeal for Ms Kheng or Ms Usha... they just didnt have that friendly/experienced touch i guess, not insulting their profession or anything, its just that some teachers' teaching style and interaction are different, and more likeable :) We played around with puns like 'lowest of the LOW' :D Ms Low said she was getting demoted or something, and we joked about 'how can anyone be lower than us?' Gideon said 'U'll see me in J1' lol... think Ms Low is a great teacher. Maybe she juz humble or shy haha, but she shd haf confidence in her teaching when everyone likes it so much :) rock on- break gonna end in 4 minutes. Lets see what the rest of the day brings and ill blog it down ba... oh ya history remedial afterwards on globalisation of CW... i really hope i can make it. sighz. little improvement now is not enough... i need to make MAJOR improvement... which is... daunting :P kk everyone gd luck and jia you

hint hint

2004-09-29T20:03:00.000+08:00

*sky was absent as he injured himself while playing basketball
Continuing from where i left off, me, jieyi, gayle, gideon, mark and yijun went for econs remedial with Ms Winnie Tan outside the staff room. It was an enlightening lesson, as i learnt a few things through my sleep. I was so tired that i had double-vision... arghz. Gonna become a panda after promos man, my eyes now are puffed up already.

The history remedial was fun as usual, esp with Gideon around this time!! This time Yuying, Gayle and Shawn sat in but yijun and youjun werent there. We discussed the social aspect of SEA, and did three questions only. Gideon is super funny! I dunno but his actions/words are SO funny waha. He kept teasing Ms Ng by playing that chinese new year song from the 'thingy' that was detached from poor old 'dory'. The lightbulb flashing about made it look like a firefly :D Ms Ng even had to close the door and hide behind it with a dustpan ready to ka-pow Gideon wahhahaha.

Ms Ng brought Tolberone chocolate today! yum yum!! ate two of them. During the lesson Gideon was funny with his words too man, he just knows how to play around with the words to make them sound funny. Like he answers the question by questioning the question in return lol, something like that. As usual i was just looking ard and slacking... felt so sluggish.. maybe its the lack of exercise these days. It was quite a fun/intuitive lesson, and i learnt some things. Ms Ng as usual was full of giggles. Oh ya and there was a few sexual connotations mentioned..haha thats what u get when gideon and jasper are there :D:D funny man... got one about 'men in uniform'... and i was like: im from ncc! -_- Shawn was there too oh ya, and he was funny too, with his 'i RUB(the board) so many times liao' lol. Our class ar... can interpret sexual connotations so well... lol... the slightest hint and it can develop into something else :D lovely class - rock on.

Remedial ended at 5.30 and took the mrt home with shawn. Forced him to take the same train with me which ended at yishun; he lives in sembawang :P He was abit sad about not being able to get his $500+ ipod today, especially when he wasted a trip out to buy the windows 2000 software from ang mo kio. He commented about vitamin pills and about their consumption. He is currently sick with fever due to walking in the rain so, i advised him to take some vitamins. Anyway, i was abit eager to rush home, to try out the new softwares i downloaded from the internet. Im a pirate man... ALL my games and software are ALL downloaded, and all are full versions... the net can be such a reliable tool yea :D Anyway i installed a few antiviruses, but still sticked to norton 2005 in the end... boy i sometimes admire those hackers. Norton Antivirus 2005 was like released dunno how long ago only... and they cracked it so fast.. omg. Heh... leads me to think about the issue on piracy... oh well... haha and the phrase *hint hint* suddenly became quite popular :P maybe coz of pre-promo stress? Its driving ppl crazy :D After sch met denise Eeling and vanessa at the study area outside LT1... so super hardworking man..well wish them all the best. And im bringing my power rangers lanturn tomorrow k! it has a new new year song! haha must bring the dragon lanturn ok, so we can fight! :P

Exhaustion

2004-09-29T14:19:00.000+08:00

Sian... today nothing really special happened, and you all must be wondering why am i typing such a short entry, and why is there only ONE entry :P Too tired man... maybe after promos or something. Ok today started out with me going for AVA duty but in the end having no duty coz there was no assembly. We wasted time in the parade square playing with lanturns... and there was super cute 'DORY' lanturn... too bad georgia didnt come today else there would be dory and nemo :D

Yep then went to room 223 for GP, and we discussed AQ questions. Mark was so funny when he buttoned his collar up, and rolled his socks over his pulled up pants... It looked like a farmer without a hat :D Lots of laughs... and some merry songs from Dory the fish lanturn... Next up was Econs lecture which was boring also. Econs tutorial discussed something about Data response questions - overall situation, and refinement... those are the steps to passing ur AQ! yea right... if thats so how come i always get single digit :(

Ok next was history lecture at LT5... and i actually spoke some stuff on the topic... Almost everyone didnt do their tutorials, so Ms Ng gave us answers. I think Ms Ng should give us answers most of the time, as it benefits us more. I mean, if we didnt do our tutorials and hurriedly copied them, we would not be learning anything. And moreover work done by us will not be the most accurate, thus i think time would be saved if we just discussed with the answers straightaway. Next was Lit lecture at the same place, with Ms Kheng droning on about The Rime of the Ancient Mariner.

Then was econs remedial and lunch, during which i carried that cute dory around all the time and occassionally turned on the sound. Ppl were staring i guess, but i didnt really care coz its so cute :D So next up is history remedial... boring... gonna fall asleep man. Im seeing double vision! everyday go home so late, how to study... sighz. Saw my jie jie today haha. talked about the dory fish and some other stuff. yep, times up, go for history remedial liao. Tmr is a brand new day!

Touching... :'(

2004-09-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

There was once this guy who is very much in love with his girl.....This ROMANTIC GUY folded 1000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl... Although, at time he was just a small fry in his company, his future doesn't seemed too bright, they were happy together...Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she couldn't visualize any future for both of them, so they went their own ways there and then...Heartbroken, the guy agreed. But when he regains his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind, just to make something out of him.Finally with all these hardwork and the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company! You never fail until you stop trying.One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain, walking to some destination. Even with the umbrella,they were still drenched. It didn't take him long to realize those were his girl's parents. With a heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan.He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same anymore; he had his own company, car, condo, etc. He made it!Before the guy can realize, the couple was walking towards a cemetery, and he got out of his car and followed... and he saw his girl, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from the tombstone and he saw his paper cranes beside her...Her parents saw him. He asks them why had this happened. They explained, she did not leave for France at all... She was ill with cancer... She had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want to be his obstacle!... therefore she had chosen to leave him.Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean that they don't love you with all they have... she had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again... he can take some of those back with him...Once you have loved, you will always love... For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever...The guy just wept.....The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them... hope you would understand...Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning, losing that person whom you thought meant nothing to you

School was amusing today!!

2004-09-28T19:07:00.000+08:00

Ok firstly my previous blog about cloning - i had to go through arduous means to get it published, at a place none other than AJC free access room. *PS: THE COMS SUCK
I was Happily typing out my essay... and i completed it with 5 seconds to spare... WHEN I SUDDENLY REALISED THERE WAS NO PUBLISH BUTTON... i PANICKED! I copied the whole text and tried refreshing... but to no avail. The irritating bell only added to my anxiety as i prayed to the internet-connection god -_- Hotmail would be even slower... so i decided to save it in notepad and return during CLAO break. OH the FRUSTRATION! I was squealing in the room man... bleah.. Anyway i did manage to get it published with a stroke of luck during CLAO break, and that took the whole break... sian, could have posted another entry.

School was so tiring today! First was GP where Ms Lee gave us gp analysis thing to do. It was rather interesting so i didnt fall asleep, and completed the whole paper, for the first time!! BUT NO NEED TO HAND IN... ! waste time! :( Ok next up was Lit, where we discussed the 'Channel Firing' Poem... quite an interesting poem involving 'a dead body's perception of the poem', and a satirical touch to the poem where the 'dead body sat up and talked' -_- The poem was basically about war-like instincts of man etc... yea i slept abit and spoke abit, fully utilised time ok! :P

Slacked during the breaks and slept in LT1, then ate lunch together with youjun, yijun, jasper, mark and some others who left earlier. Oh ya when i went to photocopy some history notes in the bookshop, i saw ranvir, and took a very close/long look at him. He's not bad looking, and quite cute also lol. But Georgia walked in, and they both were like shocked. The reason behind it... i shall not say haha, not like i noe liddat :D yea.. Georgia and Eeling were there to buy energizer batteries.

During Civics today we had a discussion about promos! And how our expected grades would be. We were supposed to write down on paper what our wanted grades were. I amazingly wrote some Cs, and Econs an E. Sigh... i am so optimistic. Gideon was like laughing away, and his laughter is so funny! makes u wanna laugh also..laughter really is contagious :D Then the lesson ended with a SUPER FUNNY ACT with Gideon, Mark, AND GEORGIA'S NEMO LANTURN! It was the highlight of the day man! SO CUTE WITH BIG ROUND INNOCENT EYES... such that u could stare into them the whole day! And the play by Gideon and Mark was about the fish knocking into a rock and dying... and when the light+sound of the lanturn blended into the play... it sent the PCCG room rocking with laughter. Next we saw a dead lizard outside room 1111 in a 'mouth-gaping' pose... it was almost like it froze to death while probably preparing to eat something... or maybe it was shocked to death.. Gideon wanted to take picture, as u could see into the lizard's mouth. I thought of poem that started with 'lizard lizard on the wall... who's the biggest mouth of them all?' -__- ok thats lame.

Then it was the dreaded long wait before history remedial at 2! And boy... was history remedial amusing. Other than the usual routine of walking round the school to find an air-con empty classroom, which took us from staff room to blk 4 to LT5 to room 12something, we finally settled down and started staring at each other... Oh yea before that i polished all my fingernails... SO COOL!! they SHINE IN SUNLIGHT! OMG! Ms Ng was going gaga over our lame jokes and little response. haha typical when u get me, mark and jasper combi. Yijun and youjun were there too, but couldnt help... so yea :D I was very slack leh... kept sleeping...Oh ya Ee ling and Maryam joined us abit later, and Ee Ling gave out apple mentos - thanks! :) Ms Ng also gave us free chocolates, and each of us ate a few. They were delicious yum yum. More jokes on the history bet.. sighz. i slept at 3am last night with the sustainence of warm coffee :S

Then toward the end of the history remedial... while attempting to write something on the whiteboard... i saw this malicious huge male mosquito(or female? cant be female..its outrageously big) It was staring menacingly at me and hovering about... it wasnt exactly the fast type of mosquito, coz it was so big. So i traced it to the side of the class... and my hopes soared when it flew low to the ground! I took aim and kicked at it!! I noe its abit useless to do so, coz the wind will push it away... but hey its so big! surely the tip of my shoe will at least stun it.. :P anyway it DID get stunned... and was dizzy... a second blow and it was down on the floor, but not dead! den i stomped on it... :P And a resounding 'yes i killed a mosquito!' sent the group bursting out in laughter, esp yijun :P yea... guess it was how everyone was doing the history question while i was killing a mosquito that was so funny.. :S :D anywayz, it ended at 5.30 due to lack of knowledge again, and ms ng was lamenting at the tediousness of it all. Went home, and said bye to a few friends includnig denise and maryam. Denise was still studying in school... so hardworking. Everyone jia you k! (abit ironic coz im still blogging at home and not studying :P) :P So till tomorrow brings new stuff, this entry ends here. Enjoy :D

Cloning: Immortality?

2004-09-28T10:58:00.000+08:00

Had gp lesson this morning... did a passage analysis on the 'Hwa Chong' Paper, which talked about cloning. A rather intesresting subject to talk about. How fun would it be, if one could live forever, without fear of death or disease. If the ability of thoughts could be copied as well, then the person would be a living breathing split-second image of himself. Hmmm heheh, thought could create infinite possibilities, but would also result in increased crime rates as people could duplicate their positions.
The fact about saving lives from the wrath of infertility or death/disease makes cloning a very useful alternative. Many people in this world die due to mishaps, and most of them die without a cause. As we arent one of them, its near impossible to feel for what their family members might feel for the loss of their loved ones. Life is so fragile... no matter how strong a person is, he is still fully susceptible to death/disease, and accidents. Countries where terrorist attacks take place, in Afghanistan for example, or Iraq, people die by numerous numbers EVERYDAY due to bombings and stuff... its so cruel to take a life... such terrorists have no heart/no brain. They advocate that they will go to heaven if they sacrifice themselves in a kamikaze... what lame logic -_- There are limitations to what medical advancements can do, thus cloning could be a major life-saver in the near future, aside from the cost it will incur. Cloning includes organ cloning, which could be useful for people in need for transplant for example.
However, some people find it morally repugnant to create a living breathing replica of urself, with exactly the same thoughts - this would be a blow to human dignity, as we are reduced to merely copies of ourselves, and are given name tags as 'donors'. Some view it as inhumane to bring a life to this world, with exactly the same thoughts as the original... this is somewhat taking 'creation out of God's hands'. And with cloning comes many accidents during the experimental procedures, and it involves many animal lives and implications later. Thus it will be very dangerous to experiment on humans, as once the life is created, if it goes out of hand, the life cannot be terminated, and the abomination has to live in suffering. Sighz..
The issue about immortality is an attractive alternative to some. Being immortal could present us with the opportunity of a lifetime to fulfil our dreams/wishes, and we could enjoy ourselves forever in the state of youth we are in. We could also attempt things that we could never dare to try in our lives due to life dangers. People would have the freedom to do what they want... oh man break ending in 5 seconds. Gotta go, till next time!

Beating about the bush

2004-09-27T19:27:00.000+08:00

For those reading this post, there are two others i made today. Haha paiseh, but there are so many issues/values in life that are worth writing down. So next time when i look at this blog, feelings will flood back again :)

I realised that i have a habit of beating about the bush when it comes to giving direct answers to friends. Mostly when it is a 'yes/no' question, i will try to go the 'indirect' way, and beat about the bush... coz im not the type to say 'no' directly, coz i think its rather crude/rude, and that im not sparing a thought for others' feelings. But some friends told me that if i kept thinking and procrastinating and not giving a definite answer, that would get on others' nerves as well.. :S I really dun wanna anger anyone or dissatisfy anyone... sometimes we all do things that agitate people unintentionally, so if i ever did anything that upset anyone here's my apologies.

About the 'yes/no' questions, i guess its also because i weigh both sides of the situation too much, and decide between the pros and cons. Its like when Brendan asked me to go to his church event thingy, i really wanted to go, yet i had to put time aside to study, yet i knew that if i told him a direct 'no' it would hurt his feelings... so i procrastinated on phone and tried to explain things out.. but yea, in the end i told him 'i really cannot make it... sorry...' instead of saying 'no'... i juz cant seem to say that word :S That also makes me a very easily persuaded person... if u say 'please' enuff times, i cant bear to say 'no', and will most probably agree to wadever u want me to do unless its abit outrageous :S Maybe its also on the account that friends are asking, so i would want to please them. yea.. sometimes i support friends more than myself... but i hope thats a good thing.. :) For those ppl who have less patience out there, sorry! sometimes i abit slow de! and my hearing ar... sometimes got problem wan, can hear wrong things, or cannot hear things from far at all. :X maybe its coz i dream too much... today sure was a dreamy dreamy day..

Sighz... back to chatting on msn... boy i cant live without msn man... the virtual community/chat world rox... lets me convey feelings so easily, without having to show facial expressions and yet being able to laugh it out or leave the intended impression/memory... though it may be better to hold one-to-one conversations, in a world where friends make up our lives, sometimes such opportunities for private talks are very rare, thus we rely on chatting over the net to noe each other more. But dont anyhow chat with ppl u dont noe ar... lol this world also alot of dangerous bad peeps, and sometimes people you dont know might juz add you :S But anyhow, take carez all my friends of 34/04, tchs, and any other friend that noes me out there.. till next post, ciaoz :)

School sux...

2004-09-27T19:16:00.000+08:00

I noe how much i like to put a title then talk about things that arent really related to the title... but im not really good at giving short sweet titles so... haha bear with me! Ok after the previous post i made... it was basically more stoning in Lit lesson, with Ms Lim talking about contrasts between good and evil, love and hate etc, and some other cheemilogy. I was reading history notes... sort of..and i managed to read 1 paragraph! cool huh.. -_- After that is math break, which i went to hand up the money for the facilitator shirt thingy, then went to LT5 only to prance about with yijun and give uniform group commands. Ms Ng was angry with me for copying tutorials.. and i have to stay back everyday at 2pm for this week, to study!! OH MAN...

After the lesson i went to eat with sky... and we talked about study techniques and some class politics about interaction. Apparently some ppl who were angry with him previously have totally forgiven him already, and he apparently has taken on abit of character change as well, for the better. I feel happy for him :) yea then it was back to LT5, where i stoned somemore while denise did some Ballet dance. Oh ya talking about that Georgia was interested to know my 'man3 jiang1 hong2' dance, but i forgot almost all of the stances liao... still remember in sec3 we performed it for the NYGH girls to see... so many stances man. Anyway georgia got scolded by Ms Ng for trying to do one of the stances ...while wearing a skirt... so yea.

The remedial with Ms Ng involved a bet, which stated that if mark, jasper and me were to score very high for history, we would get 60 bucks in all, and there was some funny debate about how much we should get and what punishment we would receive if we failed. IF we failed, we would have to do every single history essay... oh MAN! We discussed a few questions and were progressing RELATIVELY fast... so, it ended at 5pm. -__- SO TIRED! Haiz... we didnt have an easy time solving Ms ng's questions, was rather hard, on us, coz we had little knowledge :P Anyway, after it me and sky went to eat ice cream at yio chu kang mrt station. Thats me day man... boring, din even talk much at all. School sux.. no.. study sux..

Pictures paint a thousand words

2004-09-27T09:36:00.000+08:00

This morning while i was sitting dreamiliy in my shuttle bus, enjoying the cool air con... i heard the news over the radio: pictures paint a thousand words, but a song can paint more than that... Words of a meaningful song transport you to another world where the rush of emotions and feelings are just short of welling up in your eyes. The tune of a song can represent ur current feeling, and it can give u a temporary escape for ur sorrows, by bringing out scenes which are so related with ur current situation, that you just cant help but drown ur emotion into the song. Korean love songs are just so sweet... and at the right moment can result in the flood of emotion out of ur eyes.

A picture paints a thousand words... sometimes just by looking at a picture, reminiscence of fond childhood memories can surface. Pictures of friends can really warm your heart with a feeling that 'ahh ive made such a wonderful friend in my life, who has affected me a great deal and touched my heart..' Photos for remembrance can capture that very instant when the joy of a person beams out at you, and once captured, that smile can live on forever, unchanged by time; even as we grow older, its as if we're still that same happy person in the photo. Good times dont last, thats why they're meant to be captured on photo... class photos can really bring back fond memories. Though the photo just shows the many different faces, but immediately a flashback of sccenarios will occur where we re-live fun times spent with such good friends. When people are no longer around in this world... when our parents eventually leave us... photos will act as a form of remembrance, and an artificial presence of that person we love so dearly...

Its a gloomy monday today, and im really tired... Still holding the 3 schools of thought notes... lol from last night till now... and i cant concentrate in school especially, thus i hope i can read like one page before school ends. I feel puffed up... must be the stuff i ate yesterday... well, and i dont really feel like talking much, one thing coz im tired, the other is because of my inherent nature of not talking much in groups... i dunno why, but i just feel nervous about expressing my opinion in a group. I find it much easier to write opinions down or type it out, and even easier when there's a one-to-one conversation. Yea... so its not that im being dao(if ever anyone thought that), or speak very little, its juz my character, and dreamy mood.

Blogging at the free access room with no lights, and minimal aircon.. so hot!! i dunno what the rest of the day will bring, but since school ends at 1 everyday now... its a relief at least... going to be end of first break at 10am... sian... off i go, cyaz.

MOONCAKE FESTIVAL

2004-09-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

woohoo! after going out at 6.30 to tighten braces and washup me mouth, a dismal event occured: mooncake festival at my condo(what was the teeth washing for man).... gosh the food... im sure i would have put on weight that very night :S There was curry puffs galore, settled in a sea of fishcakes swimming about amongst fences of otah. Little gift packages including pockey, jelly, a pencil -_-, eraser?! and some other lame stuff, were given out. Oh ya there was this inflatable lanturn, in the shapes of POWER RANGERS, AND PIKACHU -_______-. INFLATABLE... my dad was puffing at it till he got a headache! And my sis tried to help by giving him a 'pump' which was smaller than the size of a hamster -_-

We got two such packages... my parents got them that is... and those were supposedly for children, so... WAHAHHA my parents ar :S they tabao food home for me!! But the mooncake was ee-yuck, no rich taste at all... or maybe my mouth was juz full of the taste of fishcakes.. It was rather hard to bite into the hardened curry puff, and i got a shock at the ingredients. At first glance it really looked like shit. A black paste with strands of supposed veges sticking out of the paste... and thats all, the crust was rather empty :S the fishcakes were the nice part.. mm so huge and juicy - i ate five!! Not to mention two curry puffs and one and a half mooncakes, all for free! muaahah -_- :P

The dismal part is my mom, after me tightening those braces, BOUGHT QUAY(sticky cake-_-) FROM BENGAWANG SOLO, so, in addition to those delicacies, i still had to eat '9 layer cake', and two so-called-by-mom, 'mountains', which are actually pyramidal blue glutinous rice with brown coconut toppings... bleh wanna vomit now... there goes my so called diet... and recently due to promos and freaking out, i havent been trainin! oh man... i cant stand not training... lets go run someone!!! Im getting stiff and weak... and my stamina!! ive built up my physical for so long, just to let it be tarnished by mooncakes! no way! lol im being lame -_-

Ive got nothing to do right now, so i thought id write something funny to amuse myself, and hopefully others reading it :D While typing the history notes 'the 3 schools of thought' is lying peacefully on my lap. I wonder when am i gonna touch it... :D My mom keeps saying i need to put on abit more weight, coz i was 57kg previously... and for height 170 thats not very neat... so im 58/59 now, stop stuffing me with food already! lol..

Oh ya must do facial later...recently adopted this habit with my sis. she hor, spend thousands on her face... siaoz. but its quite fun actually... first u start off with a rough substance that u rub on ur face till it looks like a ripe tomato, then u wash with normal face soap. Next comes the transformation into a scardy cat/ghost. I spread the mask gel evenly on my face, then wait for it to dry, and the tightness on me face is really cool as i stand in front of the aircon and stone for few minutes. I still recall the other time when i left my mouth open while putting on the mask, and when it hardened, i couldnt close it, for fear of the rumoured wrinkles that might appear, and i was like a slurping monster trying to prevent saliva from dripping out lolol. Im a metrosexual, and i like to dress in fashionable clothes (though constant black isnt really what u call fashionable...) but yea... hmm its 10.09 now... ill go do facial at 10.30, then it'll all be over at 11pm, which is when ill attempt to study. Note the word ATTEMPT, which means TRY, no guarantees :D im still wearing my contacts, so i might fall asleep trying to study :P tata for now

SMOKING SUX!!!!!

2004-09-26T13:54:00.000+08:00

Ever felt like caving someone's face in when they stand indignantly in front of you and puff those fumes of death right into ur face? The hot, acrid smell of smoke that stings and burns ur lungs, and makes you wanna puke, right into the face of that 'attacker'. urghz..i feel sick when i see those deadly streaks of gas emanating from that thing little white-and-brown stick, often held between the first two fingers, and put between the lips: A CIGARETTE!!

Drugs SUCK, they alter the natural functioning of your body, and make it such that you cannot live without daily abuse of such drugs. Why make ur body dependent on something that harms u in everyway? Not only does it waste money, it totally sucks ur life away from you. Yes people say it relieves stress, but thats because they just cant find other ways of relieving stress, or cant face up to reality. Smoking DOES NOT RELIEVE STRESS, unless ur talking about reliving the stress of having to live on this world for so long. Also, those people have nothing better to do, so they smoke! its not about relieving stress or anything. AND NO ITS NOT A COOL THING TO DO! Its NOT COOL to take ur life away, and EVEN MORE NOT COOL to affect those innocent bystanders who take in ur stupid smoke, after it has passed thru ur lungs...eeew gross... Cant such people be more considerate, if not for themselves, for others, who dont wanna be passive smokers? Its like in the morning and the bus interchange, u see loads of SCHOOL children, or teenagers, SMOKING AT THE QUEUEING VENUE, and the worse part, they just wont leave. I would resort to covering my nose with a tissue... but i still can smell the smoke... and it freaks me out... the smoke also stains ur clothes etc and makes you smell of it... that rotting garbage smell... dunno how ppl can stand taking ash and soot into their bodies... no brains. No insult to ppl whose parents smoke, but this is how i generally feel, and i would STRONGLY discourage or stop any of my friends who start smoking. YES SIREE. More than often, people view people who smoke with contempt, rather than admiration. Its not a 'wa u so young smoke liao, so cool!' sorta thing, its more like 'you so young already want to die...cheh'

Now on to the even worse parts... GIRLS THAT SMOKE... OMG! Since when has this nice world turned into a drug-abused place?! in orchard road, i think one day of walking around there can take away lengths of ur life -_-, though not to such an extent lar.. but i really think smoking should be banned, one step at a time. I really dunno why girls would wanna smoke, maybe to keep up that ah lian style... yea. but its lucky that only a minority of girls smoke... but the numbers are on the rise man... sighz. Smoking is bad for health, creates many problems including heart attack, strokes, bad breath, yellow teeth, death, yellow finger nails, ADDICTION, stupidity(this one is the reason they smoke), and many more. Banning of cigarettes would probably invite unwanted actions like smuggling etc, but it has to be done somehow if Singapore wants to live long and prosper -_- I know im really casting a bad light on smokers, but it really isnt the right thing to do, and i really dont like them. I think people of our age should be more mature than to take drugs as an alternative to stress or to forget troubles.. its just not worth it... the addiction is hard to get rid of.

Sometimes, we are influenced by friends to try it... 'just one puff, try try only lar', but the answer should be a loud and strict 'NO'. One puff can get you hooked. What kinda friend would wanna harm you! ud be better off without him/her, seriously, and this is coming from a person who cherishes friendship. Not say totally dun friend him/her la, juz keep a distance if he/she asks u to take drugs, this way friends can still be kept. Its not good to mix with bad company, thus guys/girls, choose friends well. Bad company can influence you to be someone that ur not. In this case, i refer bad company to those who take drugs, or are of abusive/violent character, other than that, minor character flaws are still nothing much, and friendship stil will be cherished. Lol talking about smoking... isnt that wad we do in 34/04? :P but for those reading this, dun get it wrong, smoking in this case means 'bluffing our way through' XD

Another issue, gang fights etc... i think its totally pointless lar.. Act seh in a group... act big, den commit crime already run off like mice, in the end get caught, get hanged... still the same. haiyo... i speaking singlish now to emphasize the commonality of such an issue, which has yet to be resolved. People just cant think sometimes, not most of us, but for that minority who believe that face and pride is all that matters. Sometimes a single dare like 'u scared ar, chicken den say lar' will instigate us to reply 'no lar, die den die lar'... such stupid gang behaviour....*faints*. Members in a gang are merely FIGUREHEADS, being controlled, having no say or life, following their leader, who supposedly runs away during a gang fight -_- i believe that all this rowdy group behaviour will often invite trouble too. But in case any trouble occurs, we should be the ones to apologise first. This is not about being scardy cat, first its about being polite, 2nd its about being smart. If they have a gang, you're gonna die, no matter how strong you are, so even if its not ur fault, apologise. Compromise and accomodate, like what the siamese kings did :P It takes two hands to clap, but if u let them clap on their own, they will look like lamers and will not bother you :P Once again, no offence to anyone who smokes, or dies in gang fights. Peace. XD

On another hand... if only i had sun wukong's super powers, or im battousai kenshin with a katana in my hands and no respect for the current non-existent law, i would ka-pow them! and show them a piece of my mind! haha but thats not good, i would be just like them. so back to reality, im juz a guai ol' me :P

Anyways, i guessed i talked enough about negative behaviour... till next time, no drugs for anyone!!!!!

Things to ponder about education

2004-09-26T13:22:00.000+08:00

MOE states something like "Moulding students into future leaders!" But i thought of something: a mould consists of putting the liquid into a FIXED container of FIXED shape, which then hardens into a RIGID object. Heh, wouldnt that represent rigidity and inflexibility of systems? :P I think the current system of education now is very stereotype and routine-based... i cant stand it. Perhaps it could be more intuitive and creative, with students specialising in what they really like (the govt has been emphasizing this, but never really been implemented...), and not forgetting the part about interaction. The system should not be of deadened learning and studying in a box with four walls, a projector, and a whiteboard -_-" This would provide room for boredom/lethargy to breed, and through that laziness and lack of enthusiasm. How i wish for learning to take on a whole new meaning - interactive learning! Where students come to school eager to learn! Not the current scenario where ppl come early to school, plonk themselves in a chair in the reading room and fall asleep... drained of inclination to move or think.... such is the lack of interest and motivation we encounter, such is the exhaustion we experience from the 'strenuous' education system. It should all be about flexibility, where students are given choice of freedom to learn, and through what methods. Virtual learning could take on a whole new perspective to learning, or perhaps learning could be carried out in the form of activities that will really leave an impression on us, and make us remember, compared to most of the boring lessons in which we doze off or stone in.

Of course, this is the negative side of such an education. The positive side is, its all about urself! If there's a will, there's a way! You can do it! Self-discipline and time-management will help! yes it does! -___- I guess we must all face a fact: study sux! If only school was just about mixing ard and making new friends. IF ONLY THEY ABOLISHED THE RETAINING STUFF. i mean... why not let us bear the consequences of failing a'levels , rather than wasting our 1 year away. Most of us would pia at the last minute wan wad.. haiz

There are some ppl who love study... i dont know why but their whole life is based upon study. Maybe these people dont know the other joys of life... or maybe they are so commited and disciplined as to sit at a table for the whole day and end up being an uncle with huge specs. No discrimination or wadeva here, juz what i feel, in a lame way :D Probably these people have a strong sense in themselves to surpass their limits, to really test their mental sinews and cherish the fruits of their labour. Some people get such self-satisfaction when their results show the fruits of their labour, and when they score above the rest, thus they set themselves into achieving this. Some study hard because of the wanting to get good jobs... But i dont think good jobs is the end-all and be-all of everything... there are many instances, though a minority, where uneducated ppl with special talents make it big... Kitaro with no education, and no music background, had musical sense and became a star... ordinary construction workers can become singers... thus i believe partly in fate and our destiny, which can also be controlled by our daily actions. Due to impulse and logic, we just might choose the right path... nothing can be predicted right now, so wishful dreaming probably isnt the right thing to do ... so... since the current system of education is such, we have to abide by such RESTRICTIONS, and try to adapt to it lor... sigh, boring.

Some people may argue that you control your own fate, but that isnt entirely true, as that guy above, does some planning too. So with all due respect, God help us! anywayz, our destiny has been written, but can be changed by the things we do. At this current maturing stage, we encounter many confounding problems and are often left feeling lost, stranded, floundering in that sea of emotion and doubts.. unable to rise above the waters to breathe in the very air that sustains ur existence. That air... consists of friends, love, and drive! The drive to accomplish things in life, to constantly be on the move to surpass urself! Thats what life is about... *this is getting contradictory but oh well..just writing my flow of thoughts down* If not life would be dull monotony at home, living in solitude, in poverty. Why not leave this world in fame, or to a smaller extent, leave this world happy that u've accomplished something?

However, fame and glory doesnt naturally mean a happy life... many actors/singers suffer from depression, as they are in a constant state of trying to be appealing to the audience, and some may experience self-doubt or self-denial, thus they resort to taking drugs and affecting their health. The pressures of high-standard lives are crushing. An example, michael jackson is the king of pop.. but look what has happened to him now... He cant accept himself for who he is... Thus i think that as long as we're contented for what we are, accept others around us, take things as they come easily and open-heartedly, we can all survive in this complex world. Till next time, ill sign off here.

Hi-Bye friends: A tribute to some :)

2004-09-26T13:11:00.000+08:00

Our whole life is a revolving door of buddies and friends that we spend time with, cherish, and brave the tough times together. Some friends may be closer to you than others, coz such friends base the relation upon trust, freedom, and the ability to connect spiritually and intellectually. Trust, something that friends should have, trust in thought and action, where friends keep loyal and never cheat/lie. Trust can create a conducive environment for friends to confide in one another and really get to know each others' character.

Freedom is what friends need too, freedom of thought, speech and action. It wouldnt be nice if a friend had to keep accomodating/restraining his/her actions just to fit the likings/disilkes of another friend, that would be a strained and unnatural friendship. That would be a mirror image of urself. I believe that friends are about being urself, and liking that special unique person for who he is, and admiring his/her qualities. The ability to connect spiritually and intellectually can really provide a source of communication or interest, which can develop into further friendship levels. Friends should also not be chosen by likings/dislikings, or by looks. We should never judge a book by its cover, as what's underneath may really unravel into a lovely story.

Thus with this basic definition of friends, im faced with a scenario of hi-bye friends. It sometimes is abit saddening to see that happening, as friends should be more than just two words. Probably its the fact that we have too many friends to really get to know and chat well with each and everyone of them, but ... friends reduced to two words? hmm... It could be blamed on the fact that when friends are seen with other friends, we shy away and are embarrassed of talking to them for long or really expressing our thoughts when in a group, or afraid that we might embarrass them unknowingly and strain the relation. Or it could be that we're in a rush and juz pass a sweeping 'hi' and 'bye' just for acknowledgement. Hmm... nothing beats the friends u make in a class yea... :) Sometimes that feeling of: ahh i see a friend! i wanna go up to talk to him/her... but after initial 'hellos', the convo ends up stale with them having to go somewhere else or something...

sometimes we really get that urge to strike a conversation, but back down as we dont know what their reaction may be...or shy away in fear of embarrassing ourselves with rejection. This is especially true for relationships. But nevertheless, a nice warm smile and a super-cute 'heylo!' is still needed to give that little warm welcome msg of appreciation in others hearts, and it can really put a returning smile on their face and brighten their day. A pat on their shoulder would bolster encouragement and give them more faith that friends are by their side ready to brave thick and thin together :)

Okay now this paragraph will be dedicated to our beloved ex-member of 34/04, ERIC! With you in the class, the day would never be boring, as you always had never-ending excitnig and interesting jokes to tell. You always seemed so lively and active, and not to mention your cheeky wide-smile which would always induce laughter. You could just socialise so well, and i guess we understood each other rather well too, thus you are really one of my goodest friends! You would try to reason ur way and through that ur actions sometimes abit blur loL! very funny... you also have a strong sense of yi4 qi4, and you're loyal to ur friends, willing to help them in what ways you can. But you, like me, can be indecisive too! so... yea our characters match abit. Well, here's a tribute to two others who have left our class, cindy and hwee xian, the cute lovely duo - hao3 jie3 mei4, how are u doing? The class misses u too!! and not to mention kay yin and yi ting, who was here in the beginning of the year but left very soon. And another 'cheers' to all my goodie best friends out there in AJC, and in 34/04, Yijun, sky... and all my TCHS friends, you rock! you're everything i can fall back on, rock on!

A special request by eric: to commerate the stoner's club!! Consisting of me, sky, eric, yijun, and youjun, our brothers! Here's a tribute to all the stoning times we've spent together stoning in stonable lessons, and laughing at the durability of our stonability. I remember earlier in the year, i was like super stone, could just sit through the whole lesson and stare into blank air. :D We are all a bunch of dreamy dreamers, with flighty thoughts high up in the clouds, and deep passion lol... abit qua1 zhang1? :P But yea, we enjoyed ourselves together and went out often too, a true cliche, ill never forget ya guys! keep in contact, love ya'll!!!

Oh ya and there's one person id like to say hello too, we lost contact for a long time, and that guy is desmond hong. Known him for like god noes how long, a real nice guy when u really know him. In primary sch we had so much fun together, you were so active and cheerful and fun to play with... really enjoyed those times we joked and played with each other, got into troubles together, and wad not. Cya ard fren, all the best in wadeva u do. Friendships remain unbroken by time :)

Useful horoscope/astrology sites :)

2004-09-26T13:10:00.000+08:00

http://www.doublesign.com/compat/index.php
http://www.dressking.com/horoscope/index.htm
http://www.astrology.com.au/compatibility/index.asp
http://www.lovefatedestiny.com/
http://www.holisticguide.net/compatibility.htm
http://astrology.yahoo.com/astrology/compatibility/love
http://astrology.indya.com/chinese/index.html#top

Teachers

2004-09-26T02:05:00.000+08:00

Oh man... i just cant stop writing... teachers! the very base/source of our education. Teachers themselves were once students, and they too have experienced what we're going thru right now, thus they can truly know how to handle us, and how to interact and get us to learn in the right way. This also depends on the level of commitment of the teachers. Not trying to sound biased, but diff levels of education institues haf vastly diff teaching styles - thus the system of meritocracy.

I feel very grateful/indebted to teachers. the chinese saying 'yi4 ri4 wei2 shi1, zhong1 sheng1 wei2 fu4', takes its meaning, and portrays the love and bond between teachers and students. Teachers are the pillars of our education, the model people that we take after and learn correct moral values from, people whom we respect and treat with admiration as they impart invaluable information to us. Think of it - some teachers can just slack off and get paid, and then blame it on the class, but no, good teachers put in extra effort to MOULD students, through trust, freedom, and care. This is what i really admire.

Its always fascinating how human beings can evolve into such intelligent beings - teachers. There are many types of teachers around - good and not so good, to bad. Luckily, those in AJC and Chinese High are on the good level. What's most important in this teacher-student relation is the social bond between them, and this applies to uniform groups where leader-junior relation is counted. There must never be a generation or authority gap between these two, else the relation will be strained and unnatural. In uniform groups, leaders should be firm and strict during drill, but a normal and good friend after. Such leaders earn respect easily. What we dont want is after training, we treat each other like strangers, not even saying a 'hello' or 'bye'. Hmm.. this leads to me thinking about the issue of 'hi-bye' friends... abit awkward but.. oh well back to topic.

In the case of the more personal teacher-student relation, teachers should be kind, understanding, and caring. They should be commited and try their best to bring the students to greater heights, not at the expense of welfare. They should also maintain good friendly ties with the students, such that students feel at ease when conversing with teachers and can really confide in them, thus teachers can analyze problems better. If i were a teacher, i would give the best to my students, and respect them as an individual. I would not demand permanent handing up of homework, but i would encourage them to do it for their own good. Education is all about self-motivation, and doing it if u like it. *I really dont see the point in being forced into hurriedly copying work and learning nothing in the process* im sure teachers are aware of that...

Probably one could rebut that its a matter of self-discipline and managing ur time, but... there comes a time when its nearing exams, that we really cannot manage btw doing homework and studying - how are we expected to read the loads of notes when we're supposed to do loads of homework? haha but its not like i do even when there isnt exams :P im a slacker. yes the homework may help in our results, but we need to get a better grasp first. Boy i hope ms ng can read this. I really sincerely mean it, in a nice way. Back to topic, teachers should also be there to help at any time and walk thru the period of stress with the students, only then can that be called leading by example, which derives respect. This may sound perfectionistic, but its what a dream-teacher would be like, and in this case its a reality coz in AJC, some teachers fit this description. Ms Ng, Ms Tengara, Ms winnie Tan, Ms Low, and the lit teachers, all fit this category. Caring compassionate teachers who give encouragement and inject the right words at the right time can really make a difference and bolster our morality and motivate us to work. Teachers who look at the general situation and not scrutinise and pick on minor details, are admirable as well.

For example in Chinese High, i was a super slacker, together with my class, but it was the combined sincere effort of the teachers- their tears, and strenuous efforts at preparing us, making us stay back till late hours and moulding us... together with super-inspiring speeches, that made us snap back to reality... and oh there goes gravity as we realised our mistake. Sometimes all it takes is a little kickstart, to set off that desire for learning. Thus for all their efforts, teachers and parents are but separated by a thin line, just like life and death, though that is more fragile :D Teachers too work as hard as we do and stay up late like we do, so we shouldnt think that 'oh teacher so easy job juz sit back and scold scold scold' lol... they have to mark and analyze our scripts, and think of ways to improve the teaching syst, which is very tough and challenging as well. It isnt nice to judge a teacher straightaway as well, as teachers take time to settle down and warm up with the class. All teachers are generally good, and even if they're not so good, they are doing something good by teaching us, so lets put up with it, and look at a broader scope :)

Taking a closer look, class 34/04 is actually very fortunate to have such nice teachers. Sometimes we just marvel and melt at their passion to help, not to mention shiver at the intense intellect of the lit/history teachers. Its like their brains are a fountain of information..! anywayz, i feel sad talking about 34/04... coz i dunno if i can make it not... i noe i shdnt be so negative, but what if? what if?! But i sure did enjoy myself, during pe sessions, in the toilet!?! lol and every single time spent with friends and teachers, i will remember it for life. Rock on teachers, and friends, you are the air that i breathe. :)

I miss my old school, i miss my cca: NCC

2004-09-26T01:55:00.000+08:00

Hey guys and girls, i noe its abit outrageous to post 4 posts in one NIGHT, but ive got nothing else to do lol. Anyway, i got this inspiration from yijun, so, yea ill start talking about it.
Chinese High... my home. I can never forget the blood sweat and tears ive left behind in that school... it is the house of all my emotions, the origin of true friendship, the source of where i get my inspiration and motivation from, mainly because of the wonderful cca that i joined, NCC, and also largely due to my lovely sec4 class, 4O. Yo guys, if you reading this, its a BIG HELLO! HOPE TO SEE YOU GUYS AGAIN!

In chinese high, i could really talk and lame around to full extent! coz the ppl there were, one thing, all boys, but thats beside the point. We could juz click, partly because my batch of close friends were encountered in the LAN shop in the school, and we maintained a 3-yr long friendship. I can really tell all my troubles, trust, and confide in these friends. Three of these friends, one a libra, another a gemini,and the last, a taurus, are my good good friends and i really treasure our friendship. In fact, everyone in 4O is my good friend, i really miss you all. I still recall those days where we partied and played lan and laffed our asses off, a crazy, united bunch of slackers!! Chin hua, u were one of the nice guys too serious, and not to mention jing song, yi chao, shun ting, evan, and everyone else that i might have missed out. I still remember how we used to niao each other, how we got to really understand each other inside out, how we had interesting and intellectual conversations together, how we came to school super early every morn to battle it out at the computer, and how we played wrestling! Those days where we were united in not handing up homework, and sleeping in lessons, rocked. The saying goes: when ur too afraid to look in front, too hurt to look back, look by ur side, ur best friends are there. sighz... guess things come and go, but friendship will always remain, unchanged by time. Take care my friends, Ill always remember you guys. Oh ya, one thing i forgot, here's a tribute to all the teachers who have taught me, in pri sch and in secondary(more of the secondary school side). Thanks for all your kind guidance and patience, it was invaluable, and some of it ill always cling on to in life. We had a ball of a time together, imagine, teachers going out with students to watch movie? wow. we were just like friends. So... yea cheers for teachers!

About NCC, it gave me experience which ill never forget, both in leadership qualities, self discipline(though i lack it), and motivation. It taught me how to lead by example, and how to work as a team, through trust and companionship... probably thats where i get my strong sense of reasoning from.. 4 yrs of friends in the NCC... i cried when we had to part. I still remember the gruelling times we spent together, be it in punishment or drill session, we all endured it together, as a team, as one part. We pushed the lines of our limits, and braved the odds of intellectual challenge. I learnt many survival skills in the many camps and solo nights we had. Fear is something that can be conquered, its just how u view it. Think it this way: everyone is going through it together, if ur scared, others will be scared too. Everyone suffers together, and we're proud of it - standardisation, the will to survive, surpass, and conquer oneself. All the scolding, shouting... all the outings together where we ate and talked cok, and all the after-training-pep-talks, are still fresh in my mind. That kind of motivation derived when everyone, after a gruelling day of rugged training as a team, comes together to enjoy the lessons we've learnt as a team cannot be described. U need to be sitting there amongst the 33 sweaty bodies, and be part of that spirit, listening to the commander's inspiring speech, to be able to feel that team spirit and friendship. The intense repeating of drills and IFC under the scorching sun, coupled with the rantings and ravings of the commanders, somehow made it like a challenge to surpass ourselves, to prove to them that we are capable of doing it. No commander would want to see his section suffer, the scoldings are only to instill a sense of urgency and responsibility. Sometimes, all one needs is a little encouragement, a little zest and company, to make him work, and make him happy, and in turn make others happy. Despite such scoldings, most of us actually go home more satisfied than ever, cause we feel that we have accomplished something that day and are proud of it. Probably thats why i feel so much for friends. NCC has really changed me, but heng i never become fiercer! lol. It really trains u up, mentally and physically. Mental strength of endurance, never to give up easily, and physical... yea. I love to give ppl advice, and we were trained in this during NCC drill-mutuals as well. maybe i shd be a teacher next time... ahh nvm concentrate on studies first ba. Now im in AJC, in another wonderful class, class 34/04 where friends comparable to what ive just described exist. So..life will still carry on, but friends will not be forgotten. Keep in touch, as we've all been doing. :)
Pardon my grammar in what ive just said.. too sleepy. :D i think i go sleep le, ciaoz

where is god when u need him..

2004-09-26T01:32:00.000+08:00

yuppie, id better take a break from those values, else i'll go crazy :S. well, as everyone noes, its the devilish period of the promos! And in this period of time we're all behaving like ants on a hot frying pan (CLAO again... sighz :P) Some of us might fall back on our faith - God. Well firstly im a freethinker, so i could try 'amen', 'amitabbha(e mi tuo fuo)' or ... 'ala'? help!!!! i havent revised much man, and the stuff i read keeps slipping away like there's some leakage in my brain... maybe i forgot to turn the tap off... i look around me and ppl are behaving in such a composed manner, which freaks me out even more :S Im sooooo scared of being retained man... i dun wanna leave this wonderful class... :( i noe its no use complaining and crying over not-yet-spilt-milk, but... im trying liao! lets all jia you together! wa... i love writing man... but hor... me abit lame and crappy wan :D like to joke ard too hehez
Sighz... somtimes u just lie on ur bed and gaze at the stars... and dream... and think: WHERE IS MY ROOF?! haha kiddin. sometimes i just wonder, if im doing the right thing. i dont really find study that appealing... well, no one does, but, i feel i can specialise in other things like... finding out what im gonna specialise in. :X Im like in constant self-denial right now... when i pick up the notes and plonk them on my spacious COMPUTER table, i end up playing the computer instead. Mom comes along and questions me, i say 'im doing research on the net' and act guai1. when she leaves i return to the chat windows. sighz... thats life. 'tmr den study lar, sure can wan' when tomorrow comes, 'oh no, today not good for studying, tmr i will read Jude' den when it comes to the test day... 'shit, i go there earlier to revise', and end up sleeping to cover up for lost sleep instead of last minute revising... hmnm... perfect scenario lol.
Anywayz, im gonna hafta really sit down at another table and start working hard for this last week. I dun mind if i get retained really, the only thing i cant put down is this class. so im gonna strive for it, no promises though. I cant concentrate in sch, so ill be cooped up in my cosy home... and practice sleep-studying, which is, study for 5 minutes sleep for 10 minutes kinda thing. works u noe :P very late liaoz... i think i type enuff lame stuff le... see tmr got what story to tell lor. till next time...

Values

2004-09-25T23:26:00.000+08:00

When a person is born, he is born crying, while everyone ard him is smiling. Lets beauitfy our lives with things that will end in us smiling, while everyone else cries. :) Everyday we awaken with another chance in life. Sometimes we forget how lucky we are and often forget to appreciate the little things and actions around us, that mean so much. Here's a nice poem i found:

Too often we dont relise what we have until its gone
Too often we wait too long to say 'im sorry i was wrong'
Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our heart
And we allow foolish things to tear our lives apart
Far too many times we let unimportant things into our mind
And then its usually too late to see what made us blind
So be sure that you let people know how much they mean to you
take time to say the words befre your time is through
Be sure to appreciate everything you've got
and be thankful for the little things in life that mean alot.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before we finally meet good ppl, so we will really know how to be grateful for such a gift. When the door of happiness closes, another opens but often we look so long at the closed door that we dont see the other one. Its true that we dont know what weve got til we lose it, but we also dont know what we've been missing till it arrives. Love and friendship comes to those who still hope although they've been disappointed, to those who still believe though they've been betrayed and hurt before. Trials make you strong, sorrow makes you human, thus its all part and parcel of life. Always put yourself in others' shoes, if it hurts you, it will probably hurt the other guy too.

As the saying goes, a careless word may kindle strife, a cruel word may wreck a life, a timely word may level stress, a loving word may heal and bless. Happy ppl dont have the best of everything, they just make the best out of everything that comes their way. Happiness lies for those who try, those who hurt, those who have searched and tried, ony then can they appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past-let go of the past, live on the future.

These values that ive read, are very touching, and can all be related to friends. Lets cherish what we have... and be a cohesive united entity, without internal strife, or the slightest argument. Sometimes in life, we just gotta let people know how we feel, cause we dont know what might happen tomorrow. We are sometimes very strange people. The only thing we want to say, and the one thing that we should say, is the one thing that we dont say. And yet sometimes the feeling is so strong that we are driven to use other words/actions to convey what we really mean, and most of the time things never get communicated across. All that is left is the person feeling left out and unwanted. Thus sensitivity plays a large and important role - we must listen for the tone and hidden meaning in words, which often are said indirectly. As with actions, when u receive a scolding from ur parents, all u can hear is the loud naggnig, but what about the 'i love you' or 'i care about you' part beneath in their hearts? Sometimes people require perfection in the friends they seek, so much so that they change to adapt to the likes/dislikes of such ppl. So much so that the reflection they portray in others is not of their true self, so much so that they lose their identity. Why not be urself, and let ppl find and truly appreciate you for what you are, which is where the beauty of friendship lies in.

More than often issues in our lives are spurred by impulsiveness. Once said, things cannot be undone, thats the harsh reality of life. Thus i think we shd think b4 saying stuff; though its not advisory to keep stuff bottled up, some stuff just cant be said, as it will affect people and their thoughts/emotions. Peace is what is needed in this world. People hear words but dont listen to the actions/facial expressions. Some ppl only listen for rejection or misunderstanding, and do not hear the tone, be it love or anger. Sometimes ppl offend you while not knowing it, and perhaps it could be nice to let him noe, maybe in an indirect way. Its not the presence or absence of people that makes the difference because a person need not be lonely even if he is alone. Sometimes it is good to be alone, where u can sort out your thoughts and enjoy the sweetness of solitude. But if friends are totally non-existent, then we wont be what we are today. It is not about being present WITH someone, but TO someone. Stay close to the friends/family that helped make you what you are today, cherish them. :) I dont know... life is so confounding... perhaps at this stage... where all the thoughts just flood in. Sometimes you just question urself: what is life? why am i living this episode where everything seems so confusing? I dont know, and will keep trying to find that answer. Till then, next post ba :)

Friends..

2004-09-25T22:26:00.000+08:00

Hi all, my first attempt to create a blog. Recently some issues in our class inspired me, after a period of sadness, to write a long essay to attempt to help a friend. As such, ive poured most of my emotions into them, and they are the basic ways i lead my life, which i wish to share with everyone on my blog. I hope this can make a difference, and ive compiled all the entries ive made in here. It might be abit long though, but its worth to re-read in the future.

Hi guys, hope i can do some peace around here. no one is born perfect, everyone has his/her bad points, thus i think we should all learn to adapt with each other in order to live on in peace, harmony, and happy social cohesion in a social community. Be happy always! Let things that irritate u burn just for that moment then forget about it ba, forgive and forget! its a virtue! To err is human, to forgive is divine. By spreading/radiating happiness ard you, not only will u feel better, others will too. Also by forgiving the guy, it puts you above the rest.

Sometimes it aint nice to be criticised or put down by others, thus i think we shd be more feeling and understanding of things, and put ourselves in others' shoes and feel for what they might feel. Hmm, as friends we should be there for one another and work together, not be picky :) at least thats how i live my life, i accept ppl for what they are; if there are bad points, i live with it and dont make a fuss, and sometimes, ppl arent what they seem in a group. Spend time with him/her in private and u might find a side u never knew, as ive experienced. Some ppl who are quiet in class might talk alot in private too :)

Kindness originates from the heart, and we should all learn to be nice to everyone, be it nice, bad, ugly, goodlooking, or wad not, and make him/her feel wanted, feel that he/she belongs to something he/she can trust, make him/her feel he can contribute and feel happy as we all shall be, forever, in our lives as we meet new and different ppl. As a class, we are united and rock/kick ass!! But, ppl shdnt be left behind; everyone is a friend, even those that u dont know or are just acquaintances, we should all radiate warmth and happiness towards them and put a returning smile on their lips as well; and friends stand by you through troubles, and we should cherish that, and look over those bad points. Bad points seen in positive light could be uniqueness, and if we all remain positive, happy, and light hearted, things would be so much better! in chinese, yuan4 yuan4 xiang1 bao4 he2 shi2 liao3(paiseh i never take CLAO) why bury hatred/agitation in a class, where unity and harmony should be present? Forgive and forget guys! :) I really hope everyone can be happy and peaceful, both inside and out, only this way can we improve even further at our already rock-on present state, with EVERYONE happy and joyous in unity!! :) jia you 34/04, i love ya guys!!! ;)

To add in some things that i forgot, sensitvity, and the whole issue about 'cold war politics'. I feel that sensistivity is the key to maintaining friendships, and relations which, in this case isnt that applicable. Sensitivity in emotions, moods, can really help in fostering good friends as u noe how and when to react to diff mood swings or facial expressions of the person, and try best not to hurt him/her. for me, i think of what i say b4 i say it, and try not to offend anyone.

About the Cold war politics, i think that if we be friendly and accept everyone for what they are, and be open-hearted, open-minded, and constantly preach the priceless value of 'forgive and forget', or 'be happy always'(my motto), then mutual agression would not have occured. Its just a spark of events occuring, all interlinked. First agitation over minor issues blooms into hatred, then hatred has a negative impact on the accused, thus he would naturally lapse into defence mode and retaliate at the least aggression. U dont normally see friends retaliating do you? even the most loud-mouthed/crude person would treasure friendship and be nice. I hope we can all try to see both sides of the situations. Yes some may say that a person keeps repeating his mistakes and doesnt change, but if we keep on adopting such an attitude toward that person, he'll NEVER change, not trying to say that he wont change la, and in a way, we are not changing too...ironic huh. and if we keep criticising/putting him down, it wouldnt reflect well on ourselves too :) well, it takes both hands to clap, and we should juz cool down and forgive and forget yea... it isnt good to bear grudges or wad not, esp in the working world next time. I hope we can all learn something from this, and learn to let it go.

Friends are hard to come by, and we miss old friends, as new ones come. For me, i try to make my friends happy and compromise/stand up for them, and i really cherish what we have gone through together, thus me writing this essay tonight, at 12.37am. Some friends talk more than others do, some friends understand each other personally more than others do, but we are still friends. For those who understand each other more, it is their duty to shine light on misconception, thus i hope u all can understand :( I feel abit sad when i see some ppl putting him down...its not that im siding with him or anything, i usually sit back and observe in class, and this is unbiased judgement. i mean, if u put urself in his shoes, u would probably lapse into a greater rage. To forgive puts u above the rest, and makes u a whole lot better. It doesnt matter if the person does not change, but if u forgive him, it will be anyhow better than the current state of aggression. But people have feelings, if lets say the whole class suddenly accepts a person, he/she will be real touched and realy change. We should appreciate people for what they are.

I dont think anyone wants to be mean in this world, perhaps its just their character(might want to check out on horoscopes to effectively handle this), and they cant control it. I dont know how i might sound to other ppl reading this, but i sincerely mean what i say and am just trying to help a friend, who belongs to our class, who has gone thru more than half a year with us. Any enemy, cohabiting with you, for that period of time, would have become a friend. And friends are what makes the world go round! without friends, the whole purpose of life and interaction goes down the drain. The world would be a place of dark solitude. Thus why impose, or rather, indirectly impose such a world for certain ppl when we can juz open up our minds and hearts, show a little more care and concern for friends, show sensitivity, radiate love and justice, and everything will go smoothly! rock on 34/04!

Each of everyone's actions or words can have the slightest impact on any person, be it good or bad, we never will noe. If he voices it out, it could be for the better, or it could take an offending stance. But if he keeps it in, it will only accumulate, and accumulation till such a point where LDMR sets in, and it will burst out in a fit of rage or something. I mean, why not let our every little action brighten the lives of people around us. Its a good thing to do. We shd stop harping over who's character is wrong, whether the virtual world has to be restricted or not. Everyone has flaws, even people typing comments too, im sure uve been in such a situation b4, how have u felt? the same, depressed, rejected way? the feeling of rejection is cold and bitter, it can really make your day worse... i get very sad too when i see friends getting together to put down someone?! hey hey, we should cherish friendship, and not cherish the putting down of friendship. Not saying that anyone is not being a good friend or wad, guys and girls in 34/04 rock. But sometimes we juz gotta learn to live and let live, learn to let go that lump in our hearts. A minor event can easily be forgotten, or kept for memory's sake, but shd never be accumulated. This will breed a hatred in us that we've never seen b4, and we will be quite shocked when informed by bystanders; changnig into someone we're not, from the original kind-hearted person that we are. This is wad's happening to people who get outcasted... i can cry for their feelings... no one is there for them to lean on... when they fall, they fall hard... id much rather bear the bad points (if there REALLY is any), and let them fall on a friend, and encourage them.

About blogs, i agree that it is a place dedicated to yourself, you can write anything u want on it, personal feelings, dislikes, anything. It is open to viewer discretion, i mean, if a person is truthful about himself and his thoughts, it should be ADMIRED, not hated, even if what he says might not be a little pleasant, but he has freedom of thought and speech. Freedom, a very important aspect of friendship as well; friends should not be possessive or try to RESTRAIN themselves just because of minor issues. Friends appreciate each other for their unique self, and that's wad each and everyone of us cherish in a friend. When u read a negative comment on a blog, it might just sting awhile, but its no cause for hatred! we shd all look at the general situation, and not juz keep concentrating on the bad points, as such, we will never see the depth or truth. I hope im not talking like i know the whole situation, i dont, but i do noe a friend here is in need, of company, of the love that everyone else has in them, to brighten his day, make school a more attractive place to live in. Ever wondered why i never skipped sch? though it can be very sian, but, there are friends there to brighten ur day, to share ur troubles and go thru the day with you. yea.. we can give advice or tell a person what's wrong with his character, in a nice way, which is what we've been doing, but try not to bear any hatred in the process.

Yes some ppl dont like to be told what to do, or their pride stands in the way, but, thats how people are made right? no one is perfect. A useful quote: 'when you see that the world has turned its back on you, look again, maybe u turned ur back on the world' This can be applied to both parties, thought provoking :) well, soemtimes the world does revolve around a person, but in this case, some of us made the world revolve around that he/she, such that he lives his life in solitude now, feeling depressed, that he cant fit in. We should never think that 'oh if you dont like it then transfer'. Then how about ourselves who are enjoying our time in the class? i feel that everyone should have a share in the joy and friendship bond. A person has the right to do what he/she deems right, as yes no doubt this might irritate some, but juz be a little light hearted and open-minded on stuff, and it'll blow over easily and friendship can still prevail. We should not keep on thinking negative, if so anyone can keep finding faults in a person. Yes u may rebut that if we keep thinking positive, the guy will seem perfect too, but, why think negative when life can be so much happier and more cheerful when u think happy?! Think of it as a long distance race, with a friend by your side, providing encouragement, we can complete the race together, never running alone, always being motivated, so lets not let our friends in class, or be it any type of friend, anywhere, run/walk alone. I hope what ive said/done can help patch up or move some ppl into seeing both sides, and cherish friends that we have. Its already at the end of the year... some of us may not make it.. thats why at this last moment, we should CHERISH FRIENDS ALL THE MORE! give them the respect they deserve and in turn you'll feel better when they smile back. Lets not lose this friendship... *cries* ill... see u all... hopefully... next year... :(jia you 34/04, love ya forever